In all the fun I’ve had with breast cancer for the last many months (and by “fun” I mean “experiences I would like to never, ever have to do again”), it’s been easy to forget that I’ve also got no thyroid. Which means that if I don’t have my thyroid meds at the exact right level, my brain skews off. It becomes harder to focus. It becomes harder to sleep, which in turn contributes to the whole focusing problem. And that, of course, makes it harder to write. Which gets me stressed on top of being scatterheaded and tired, which makes it even harder to write. A nasty cycle, all around.
I’m taking two thyroid meds right now: T4 and T3. T3 is the more powerful thyroid hormone, and my dosage is between one and two tablets of that per day as needed. A dogged little corner of my brain chimed up finally and went “so, uh, hey, maybe back off the T3 a bit?” So I tried that.
And I’ve slept well enough the last couple of nights that I’ve recovered enough brain to make it through another page of editing Lament of the Dove. Not only that, but to also put in a little bit of a callback to Faanshi and Julian’s first meeting, one which Julian does on purpose, and which is supposed to signal his reaching a turning point in his relationship with Faanshi. Here’s hoping I gave it the right words.
Edited tonight: +230
Chapter 19 revised total: 4,923
Lament of the Dove revised total (fourth draft): 121,622