"The Motives of Slavery" Log Date: 2/21/99 Log Cast: Kiera, Faanshi, Murako Log Intro: The war is over; the Children of Fire have defeated the Children of Air. Aftermaths and consequences resonate throughout both races, ranging from the loss of so many lives in the doom of Lycenae to the coming marriage of Khalid Atar to the Empyrean noblewoman Thalia Tritonides. But for one young halfbreed shudra, the results of the war are far simpler. The ending of the battles means, to Faanshi, that she has gone to the city of Haven to live in Atesh-Gah with her heart-mother Ulima, her mistress Kiera, and Kiera's naraki Murako. Faanshi is ignorant of most of what the war has wrought, overwhelmed by her first ride upon a wyvern, and fearful of the city she has heard Khalid Atar claim turns his people into candala -- and unwilling to expose herself to its touch if it would bring the ire of Khalid down upon her beloved old kinswoman's head. Moreover, Faanshi is deeply worried by Ulima's increasingly fragile condition, and so in Atesh-Gah the shudra girl has occupied herself with seeing to the venerable Ushasti woman's comfort while studiously practicing the small meditations Ulima teaches her to give her control over her magic. To further Faanshi's distress, Imphada Kiera has shown very little inclination to spend much time within Atesh-Gah's walls -- and Faanshi frets to herself, for although it does not seem her place to question the actions of her mistress, still, she keenly misses Kiera's presence. In the meantime, although it lightens Faanshi's heart to see that Kiera's Mongrel naraki Murako has gained surety and confidence in his bearing, seeming to begin to heal from the tortures the Atarvani had visited upon him... Faanshi cannot help but notice that some of what seems to trouble Imphada Kiera involves the Mongrel man in her keeping... *===========================< In Character Time >==========================* Time of day: Night Date on Aether: Tuesday, March 27, 3904. Year on Earth: 1504 A.D. Phase of the Moon: Last Quarter Season: Early Spring Weather: Sleet Temperature: Chilly *==========================================================================* West Wing - Atesh-Gah - Haven(#2129RL) Following the same design as the rest of Atesh-Gah, the long hallway is done in shades of polished white, delicate gold, and ethereal sky-blue. Here and there doors dot the otherwise unblemished magnificence of the simple design; each one leading to the room of some important personage in Atesh-Gah's roster. An elegantly decorated archway frames the east end of the hallway and a window braced with iron filligree looks out over the embassy's garden. Contents: Kiera Obvious exits: Suites Hallway The balcony outside the hallway serves as a frequent landing space for Kiera, when she resides in the room within, that is hers. This particular late-afternoon's bright blue sky is momentarily blocked out by the fanfare of wings, and Kiera's slight hand niggles at the door, to enter. Because she's not been here in so long, and because the Varati have been at war, with the Empyreans, someone has locked the door. Tap, she taps. Tap tap tap. Tap tap tap. Nothing. More tapping has a similar result. So... A sharp breeze eddies thorugh the cracks in the door, between stone and the hinge, and that wind swoops down the hall and into the room where someone directed you, told you it belonged to Kiera. If you are drawn out, then you will see Kiera's face, at that transparent window, and one hand, tapping on it. Faanshi, indeed, is drawn out -- with a little gasp as that attendant breeze ruffles her sari and her blue veils. With Ulima quietly resting by a warm fire, the young shudra emerges from her mistress's quarters, looking up and down the hall until she catches sight of Kiera at the balcony door. The Kiera-Sight jounces up and down slightly, as if she sees Faanshi's appearance, and is pleased. Within that chamber, Murako sits at a chair, working intently at something with a small metal object. His eyes are focused and intent as he twists the device back and forth and then blows on it. Suddenly a whisp of wind stirs his hair and causes him to look back towards its source -- the hallway? Taptaptap. Taptaptap. Arching an eyebrow, he sets his project down and rises from the chair with a soft grating sound. "What is that, Faanshi?" He calls after the shudra as she departs. His voice seems to have gained some strength in the last weeks. The naraki is no longer so melancholy and distant. A few steps take him towards the doorframe, and he peers out into the darkened corridor. "Imphada Kiera's breeze," the shudra says softly. As she heads out into the hall, Murako peering behind her, Kiera's form is indeed spotted. Faanshi picks up the speed of her stride, till her sandaled feet carry her to the door and she can let the winged halfbreed in. "Good evening," she greets her. First, Kiera casts a dubious glance toward the ceiling, as if silently asking it to remain -there-, where it is. Not to come crashing down to crush her, and break her wings and pin her in darkness and chill. Then Kiera steps in, smiles up to Faanshi, "Thank you, Faanshi." A nod then, and an attentive gaze rides over Murako, before Kiera speaks again, "How is Ulima? Did you have healers look at her, Faanshi?" Kiera pauses, to await the answer before she heads in. Murako's body is shrouded in shadow, the light streaming in and illuminating his rear, yet leaving the rest dark, "Imphada Kiera?" He speaks lowly beneath his breath as he spies his halfbreed master upon the balcony. Stepping more fully from the room, he directs himself in the path of the shudra, and closer, "Imphada..." his voice breaks the pause between Kiera's and Faanshi's words, head bowing to the woman who stands before him, "..allow me to get you something to take the chill of the outside off? Some tea perhaps?" Without hestiation he offers her something to make her visit more comfortable. "Nabi Jhonan says that much of what ails her is age," the girl in the veil says, mostly relievedly, though there is a trace of plaintiveness in her tone. "The march through the winter was hard on her, but it will be good for her to rest here... in this place." And Faanshi pauses, then, as Murako joins them. Despite Murako's intentions to ease Kiera, that woman only seems more twitchy, and she casts another look at Murako. Silent, as if thinking, then thinking it best not to respond. She swallows, slants her look back to Faanshi, then shifts her gaze and poise entirely, to look at the door to her room. Standing open, left open, as if in invitation, that door beckons, and Kiera paces toward it, curls her wings around her more and slips within. Kiera opens the door and steps into Kiera's Room. Kiera has left. You open the door and step into the Kiera's Room. Kiera's Room - Atesh-Gah - Haven(#1242RJn) The muted opulence of this room is positively simple in nature when compared to the rest of Atesh-Gah. The walls, floor, and ceiling are all made of smooth, pale, polished stone. While not huge by any standards, there is more than ample space for movement (even that of a winged form) around the furniture placed within. A large, four-posted bed with a canopy above sits directly across from the door with a night table to its left. There is another small table of golden-varnished wood to the left of the door, bearing an assortment of washing implements. A small window, too small for a human form to fit through, looks out to the courtyard. Contents: Kiera Ulima Obvious exits: Out Murako enters from the Hallway. Murako has arrived. Faanshi quietly follows Kiera into her room, though as soon as she is within, she steps noiselessly to the divan upon which Ulima is sleeping, an embroidered blanket tucked about her aged form. Murako follows along behind the two women, his hands hung at his sides. As he enters the chamber, he immediately moves towards the spot where his 'project' lies on the table. Fiddling with the metal instrument, he slips it into a sack, along with what appears to be a length of wood, perhaps eight or nine inches long. "What is it that you do, Murako?" Kiera asks, so she need not examine Ulima, or look upon the expression on Faanshi's face, as the aged woman wanes. Kiera does not move to the fire; she does not step more than three feet into the room. Just far enough to let the others by. And she keeps the door open. Faanshi's face is veiled as always, so her expression is a bit difficult to read. The shudra leans over her heart-mother for a moment, tucking the blanket about her more snugly, before turning her green gaze back to her mistress and the naraki. "Hrm?" Murako glances quickly up from the table towards his master. It seemed as if for a moment he was in a stupor. "Oh, nothing Imphada." He holds the sack in his hand, "Merely a carving I have been working on." He doesn't seem quick to give up the nature of his work, but then again, he isn't hiding it, "Something to pass my spare moments and avoid idleness." One would notice that he does not directly gaze at Kiera, rather somewhere near her feet. The bag remains at his side, clutched between his fingers. A few feathers curl off the top of Kiera's wings, where the feathers are smallest, and where she tends to shed, if she's nervous or anxious. Kiera draws a breath and lets it go again, as if she opts not to ask Murako of hsi project. She instead looks at Faanshi, then glances around the room. One of the posssessions she had brought with the caravan slumps against the wall. A sack. To that, Kiera pads, veering toward the middle of the room, then only at the last moment, angling over to the wall again. She picks up the sack, looks within, then reties the neck with the string around it. "This is for Drisana, Murako. She is a young girl who lives here. I would like you to bring this to her." The sack, should you look, contains Empyrean feathers of all lengths, all sizes. "Do not bend it, or what is inside, will break." Faanshi straightens up to her full height, trying to look composed now, and she asks earnestly, "Is there anything I can do for you tonight, Imphada Kiera...?" Murako nods once as Kiera speaks to him, "Yes, Imphada. Where might I find her?" The sack in his hand, he slides beneath his haik. Taking a few steps in the direction of the sack, he reaches down to examine it for a moment. The end of the bag is opened just a bit, and as he peers, the Mongrel can see the hoarde of Empyrean feathers within. His eyes widen, just a touch, and he just /stares/ at the contents with a mix of bewilderment and confusion. Though the other two continue to carry on their conversation, the naraki seems stricken by this sight. Far off cue, he stammers out, "Im..Imphada? Should ..I .." ..a pause as he straightens, not yet lifting the sack, " ...should I bring this to her now?" "You should care for the wise-woman, Faanshi. But if you become weary, and she sleeps, you may have another come within, and watch over her. You should not spend all your time here, Faanshi. I would like to show you Haven. Or..." Kiera eyes Murako again, then, then decides against it. "Or if you cannot find me, any of the Agni-Haider will go with you. To see it." Kiera has not been blind to Murako's reaction, and she eyes him again. "You should find out who she is, by asking the others. They will know. And when you find her, then you can bring her that. Tell her that it is not my first kill, as I had promised, because those I killed, I could not collect from. I was still busy. I got these, later." Faanshi's gaze flashes back to Ulima's slumbering form; leave Ulima be, and go out into the wonders of this mighty city? The possibility is rather staggering for her to contemplate. But if Kiera thinks it will be all right, well... Faanshi merely bobs her head, and then peers with shy curiosity at the sack Murako holds. Murako swallows once, looking back towards the sack, laden heavy with the feathers of fallen Empyreans, "Yes, Imphada." He obeys, yet there is a weight in his voice which is somber, saddened, and disturbed all at the same time. Wrapping his hands around the edge of the bag, he closes it tightly so that his eyes will not have to rest upon the contents. Immediately, he straightens and turns himself to look at his master once again, "I will do as you have asked." A pause, now his eyes fall up a little higher on Kiera's body, almost meeting her gaze, "Imphada? If I might ask. How many Empyreans... did you kill during the war?" His voice is hesitant, yet vaguely bold. The feathers on Kiera's wings slide over one another, neatly, testiment to the superb attention Kiera pays them in grooming, and she appears slimmer with her wings completely folded, her attention directed in that avian-unblinking regard on Murako. First she speaks of something different, "When we are alone, we three, I am Kiera, and you may look upon me. I would that this be the situation everywhere, but you two may not be safe, if you treat me with what others feel is disrespect. I do not see it that way, but the other way. The Khalid-Atar understands that about me, and he allows me to see him, fully, without bowing my head. When we are alone, together." That's probably the last time Kiera will say this, and she moves on to the other question, "I have brought storms upon them, from other areas, and I have helped ground their troops, so that the Varati soldiers could kill them. I have made them wet and cold and likely helped disease take many of their lives. I have enabled Varati armies to approach those of Empyreans, undetected, for the Varati marched under brutal storms that the Empyreans could not brave. I have directly killed all those who would threaten the Khalid-Atar, and those who appeared to be soldiers, who left Lyceanae. I have disabled many, so they could not fly, and they were burnt by the volcano, or cut apart by Varati swords. I cannot answer your question, Murako." Faanshi pulls in a soft breath, looking for a place to sit nearby, then. Her eyes flicker at Kiera's granting them of freedoms at least in private; she might smile behind her veil, but her mouth is of course veiled. As she settles down in a near-noiseless whisper of her simple cottons and linens, taking in Kiera's accountings of her actions in the war, her gaze turns solemn. "I understand, Imphada." Murako's words are distant, and there is a sense of hesitation. For even if Kiera's granting of some measure of equality in private gave him some hope, the realizations of so many deaths strikes him as a hammer upon a cold, hard anvil and resonates in his brain. Closing his eyes for just the briefest of instants, he raises his hand to rub his temple. Deep within he tries to supress something, flashes like lighting in his head, voices that call from the past and present. Suddenly, he snaps out of it, but finds himself grasping the nearest chair for support, "I understand. It shall be done as you request." Perhaps there is more to say, more to speak on this topic, and so much he cannot say, let alone remember. Now, his gaze rests firmly upon his master, unafraid of what he might behold. And she can see beneath his gaze a terrible toll indeed. Kiera's voice gentles, as she steadily returns Murako's look, "I have told you, when you spoke of your enemies, that the Varati people are not your enemy, but that I was, if you were of the Empyreans, Murako." This is important to her, to remind him, "I did not lie." But Kiera does not explain her enemity with the winged race. She does not justify herself. It was, after all, war. And she followed orders precisely. Faanshi's eyes turn a bit more plaintive over the top of her veil, as she takes all of this in, trying to turn Kiera's and Murako's words around in her mind... to make sense of them. Most if not all of the war has made very little sense to her, but if she's learned anything since Hashim tugged her out of his vara and off to war with the Varati hosts, it is how to listen and learn. Her gaze shifts quietly back and forth between the face of Kiera, and the face of the young man who has become her slave. Murako hestitates for a long moment, his hand grasping the chair a bit too tightly. Faanshi still stands there, a young woman he hardly knows, but who has become his family -- all he now calls sacred. Blinking once, he straightens again and looks to Kiera, strong, in the face of what must be unknown hardship. A soft sigh, "I do not know who the enemy is anymore, Imphada." A long pause as he averts his eyes instictively, "However, that is irrelevant to my tasks and service to you and the Varati people. My personal demons are not yours to bear. I will not let them get in the way of my duties. I am ..sorry." For about the seventy-eighth time now, Kiera reconsiders the wisdom of that impulsive decisison she made, to have a man named Thomas tatooed with a brown hawk, instead of Khalid-Atar's symbol. For about the seventy-eighth time, Kiera re-examines the logic that justified it. And she draws a breath, looks over to Faanshi with an odd expression, half-frustrated, half-pleading, before Kiera addresses her attention to Murako once more. "I do not think I am a good owner, Murako, and I only still learn to be a good Varati. Would you like to go to a different owner than me?" The word still tastes bad in Kiera's mouth. Should she be listening to all of this? Uncomfortable, Faanshi takes a few steps away from the others, before finally sinking down silently to sit on the floor near the edge of Ulima's divan, her legs tucked under her, feet to her right. Her gaze shyly drops down to her hands. "I do not know the wisdom of that decision, Imphada." Murako answers very plainly, "It is clear that Khalid Atar gave you charge over me because he wished to test your ability to grasp the concepts of /being/ a Varati. He gave you responsibility over one he knew would not be easy to handle." A pause as he looks back at Kiera, "If I might be so bold, you do not seem like the sort to quit the field when things are difficult. To have to tell Khalid Atar you had to let another have me. From what I have learned of the Amir-Al in recent weeks, is that his people love him. He is fair, and cruel at times. As leaders are wont to be. He loves his people." Faanshi seems to be a nice thing to stare at for a second as he continues, "I know he loves his daughter and would not wish to see any harm come to her. I may not be the finest slave in the Varati Kingdoms, Imphada, but have you ever stopped to consider why Khalid Atar gave me to you?" Arching a brow, he finishes with brown eyes on his master. Actually, he did not. And in fact, Kiera hasn't even mentioned the episode to him, like she told him she would, because she's discombobulated about a -different- situation involving the Khalid-Atar and his Future Plans, one of which Kiera patently disapproves. So Murako's words actually see a softening of Kiera's features, with a rare and brief humour. "The Khalid-Atar told me to handle the situation, with you, because I was distressed by it, Murako. He gave me no further instruction. But you have observed what is true; the Khalid-Atar is a fine ruler, a fine leader, and he cares for his chosen people." Further, "I am not his daughter, but he calls me 'daughter of his heart', much as Faanshi calls Ulima her 'heart-mother'. I am a halfbreed. The Khalid-Atar is not, and did not father me." Kiera looks again at Faanshi. Perhaps this discussion is wearing on her, on the aged Ulima. So... Kiera draws a breath and tries to pull this to a close, "You asked me to have you tortured, for you to become a slave. Now you are a slave. Would you prefer a master," Kiera doesn't like that word either, "Other than me, Murako?" Wearing upon her? No. Faanshi can safely say that the discussion is not wearing upon her, for all that she is not entirely certain she should be hearing it. Kind as Kiera has been to her, the young shudra is still not entirely certain of her place in the world that has dramatically altered around her. She peeks up again, just to show that she is listening and attentive. On the divan beside her, Ulima sleeps on, her breathing a soft and barely audible rasping in the room. Murako's lip curls at the corner just a touch, perhaps a frown, or some other expression, "I am your propety, Imphada. It is not my right to make a decision on continuing service with you. You are a fair master, and have treated me with kindess." His one hand gestures towards Faanshi and Ulima, who rests soundly, "If you release me, I only ask that you not do so because your conscience tells you to do it. I know you seek to learn the ways of the Varati. This, who I am, is part of that life." Shaking his head slowly, he takes a step forward, "I cannot ask you to change who you are, anymore than you can ask me to be rid of the demons which plague me. Do not place me in a position where I must justify the pangs of guilt which stab at you. This simple life I relish. These simple tasks. Do not think I hate you, or what you have given me. For, more than you can know, it is a relief." This is getting too complicated, and a tension headache threatens to pounce upon Kiera, if she doesn't deal with either these words, this lingering sense of frustration, or these confining walls that just might collapse upon her. "I am not guilty. I have done what you asked, and that was your choice, Murako. *I* would have killed you." She mentioned that before, didn't she? No matter. "And I took you as a slave to me, because ...." Kiera pauses to sort through words, to again look at Faanshi, with whom she spoke, prior to fetchign Thomas back, prior to Kiera's shock at his transformation, "Because I was afraid you would be broken by someone, Murako, who never saw how beautiful your spirit was before. It was before I saw you again, after the Atarvani were done with you, that I made that choice. Now... You are broken, I think. So it would not matter. I cannot help you learn, because I do not know what you are, and though I could understand what you were, and I could have helped that you, with time, this one... I do not and cannot." Make any sense? "The spirit is indomitable, Imphada." Murako answers softly, his gaze softening just a touch. "Men can be broken, enslaved, and put to chains, shown horrors the likes of which mine eyes have seen, yet we live on. We breathe and we continue. I made that choice because of ..." ..he pauses and releases the chair he grasps, realizing that his hand has nearly lost circulation, "...some men deserve their fates. Please, I beg you not to judge me for a spirit that is proud. You see pride as a strength, yet there is a pride which is far more terrible than any resistance you could immagine. A pride that stems arrogance and ignorance. A pride that kills men." He pauses, his ire having been raised slightly, and that realization has come upon him. Gathering himself, he looks down at the ground, "I do not wish to be a source of heartache and displeasure to you, Imphada Kiera. If you truly feel as if you cannot have me, then I will ask you to send me to another. You are a beautiful creature, and I would not see you unhappy at my expense." His voice trails off into silence. Faanshi meets Kiera's glance with her own sober green one, and at last, made more and more uneasy by the edginess between the other two in the room, she puts in, "Perhap... if you, Imph... Kiera" -- and a slim golden hand gestures at her winged mistress-- "would not wish to bind him, and you, Murako" -- her hand comes round to gesture to the naraki -- "would not wish to leave her... perhaps... at least in private... you can be friends and... let the eyes of men see what is proper, as needed...?" Her voice comes out of her very shy, but quite concerned. Definately, Kiera is about to get a pounding headache. She twitches her wings, sending a few more small feathers curling into the air, dancing in the small, ever-present breeze that accompanies Kiera. And then the winged halfbreed looks to the other halfbreed, and the prone woman behind her. "I sleep on the roof of the stable, or within, if it rains and the Queen is not here, Faanshi." Murako is silently included in that, with the briefest of glances, "If you need me, you may call to me, there, or leave a message with the Agni-Haider who watch the gate." Kiera heard Faanshi's suggestion, and whatever she thinks is not revealed, but hidden behind flat-hazel eyes, a wary, weary mask. "I would like to know, if it is possible, if the Ulima's sickness becomes worse." Kiera's jaw twitches just slightly, then she nods to Faanshi and looks again up to Murako. Anything else? Faanshi blows out a breath, and then only nods to Kiera, nothing more, troubled that she could not ease the tension in the room. Murako's eyes remain upon the ground as Kiera seeks to flee the conversation with him. For a second, his gaze flits over towards Faanshi and he takes her words in. Strong hands fall to his sides, as if in defeat. "If you are needed, I will be certain to rouse you, Imphada." Answering as a slave should his master. The tension in this place is now perceptible, yet the Mongrel seems surprisingly relaxed. His voice never raised, though clearly the topic was of some meaning to him. Until Kiera has left, he will not speak. 'Flee' is right. Though Kiera maintains a fairly impassive demeanor, she's edgy, unhappy, displeased. With nothing more to say, nothing more said, she turns and closes the distance between her and the door with quick, soft steps. As it was never closed, Kiera slips through, and the Graisha does not think to close it behind her, but rather she heads directly for the balcony and the freedom of flight, beyond. Kiera opens the door and steps out into the Hallway of Atesh-Gah. Kiera has left. Murako turns away from the door and leans against the chair which his hand found only moments earlier, "I should not remain in Kiera's possession, Faanshi." The Mongrel speaks soft words, "I can see the pain I am causing her. The confusion and the frustration. It is pointless for me to force her to enslave, when it is clearly not in her nature." "I... saw it... the frustation," Faanshi says very softly, her gaze averted, her voice troubled. "I wish that I could help, but you both spoke... of many things... that are beyond my ken, at least for now..." Murako sighs softly, "Kiera is a proud woman, Faanshi. Proud and indomitable. She saw that same spirit in me, and was drawn to me because of it. Yet, she does not know the kind of man I am or what my heart tells me is right and wrong. This life, this fate, was set upon me by mine own hand. How can I remove it so swiftly and promise myself respite?" A pause as he grimmaces, "Yet, how can I continue to torture Kiera when it is clearly not her wish to have a slave, but an equal? How can I give her something I am no longer capable of?" Turning around, he looks at you squarely, "You have been so good to me, Faanshi. You and Ulima. You have given me a new start on life. Given me a second chance at salvation. For that, I will always owe you a debt of thanks." Faanshi sits up a bit, listening intently to the young man, though she cannot manage to look at him for more than a few seconds at a time. But at his final words she does peek up again, and her gaze stays up. Her veil hides her lower face, but her eyes brighten, and she softly replies, "I have only acted as Ulima has always taught me... but because it praises her, I thank you in return for those words." He takes a step closer, "Then even if it be Ulima's teachings, I give praise." Murako bends down ever so slightly, his eyes never leaving your face, even if you refuse to look at him, "I spoke once of the evils of this world. Of the evils that men can do, in the name of religion, their country, and their god. In these last few weeks, I have seen a kindness, a selflessness that I never thought was capable in others. I see that kindness in you, Faanshi." Raising one hand, he moves as if to touch you, yet, pauses almost self conciously, knowing that it would not be proper. He looks suddenly towards the old woman who lies ill, "Ulima is reaching the end of her days. Even now I can see this. You are the inheritor of her knowledge and skill. Put that to good use. Spread the light for all to see." Pausing, he rises once again, his shadow elipsing you, "I hope to see you again, though I fear it may not be for sometime. Tell Kiera that I am sorry." ... Faanshi's eyes flash their gaze round to Ulima's heavily slumbering form, and then up again to the naraki, undisguised alarm in their depths. Then, slowly, she rises up off the floor, coming up to her full height. Taller than Kiera though she might be, still, there is a much quieter feel to her presence that might almost lead one to believe that it was the winged imphada who was the larger of the two. "If you must go..." The shudra's voice falters. "I... will tell her what you wish..." "Thank you." Murako says softly, and then without hesitation, he turns towards the door to exit. His sandals sound upon the floor with a hollow resonance. Soon, he has opened it and disappeared into the hallway, leaving you alone in the chamber with the sleeping woman, and a horrible feeling that something bad is brewing. [End log.]