From tap@ups-sucks.tcp.com Tue Apr 12 16:11:43 1994 Return-Path: Received: from ups-sucks.tcp.com by mail2.netcom.com (8.6.4/SMI-4.1/Netcom) id QAA04779; Tue, 12 Apr 1994 16:11:17 -0700 Received: from localhost (tap@localhost) by ups-sucks.tcp.com (8.6.5/8.6.5) id QAA20452 for dewshine@netcom.com; Tue, 12 Apr 1994 16:09:03 -0700 From: Tapestries Message-Id: <199404122309.QAA20452@ups-sucks.tcp.com> Subject: Brightmark's departure... To: dewshine@netcom.com Date: Tue, 12 Apr 1994 18:09:02 -0500 (CDT) X-Mailer: ELM [version 2.4 PL23] Content-Type: text Content-Length: 19230 Status: RO Here it is. Since this log happened, I've been reeducated in what Brightmark should and would not know, just from what she ought to have learned off-camera. So... please take this log with a grain of salt. Or a whole shaker. :) And, to answer the obvious question, no, Brightmark did not run away just because of angsting over Dawn. This has been building for some time, but Dawn and Twilight were the trigger, for running away. It was a decision made in haste for her, that hopefully will turn out for the best. Minor note and retcon, as Great High Chieftess bappled into me with a Clue by Four last night, Brightmark does have some clues about hunting. However, she's absolutely no good at APPLYING those clues. Therefore, she says that she can't hunt. Again, grain of salt. Forgive me. Just this silly (sometimes idiotic) vixen, -Silvie ----Gnaw, Chew, Chomp---- Chitter smiles at Brightmark. *Hello!* Brightmark smiles a little shyly. -(Hi)- Dawn has connected. Dawn yawns and wakes up. Brightmark smiles over at Dawn. -(Hi...)- Dawn hugs! Chitter is, for some reason, reminded of something very small and fuzzy by Brightmark. He roots in his carrypack for a moment, then offers her a handful of nuts. *Hungry?* Brightmark hugs Dawn back quietly. -(How're you?)- Brightmark smiles at Chitter, but shakes her head. Dawn huggles everybody, and smiles happily. (Hm.. Chitter and Brightmark, nice match :) Dawn sends openly ** I'm wonderful! ** Brightmark blinkblinks? Nice match? Dawn hugs Chitter too :) Dawn giggles..the two quiet holdmembers :) Chitter puts the nuts back in his pack, which rustles a bit, and squirms as Dawn hugs him, looking awkward. Brightmark nods softly, and she hugs Dawn back gently. Dawn er, holt, even Dawn scritches Chitter solemnly, then sits down on the log, dangling her feet. Chitter is skritched? (pika pika) Brightmark sits down beside Dawn on the log, looking up at her, seeming almost as if she wants to say something, but can't bring herself to say it. Dawn giggles at Chitter, patting the log beside her, and smiles at Brightmark. Dawn scritches Brightmark too, looking happy. Chitter sits cautiously, as if afraid the log were going to collapse or something, and shakes Scamper out onto his lap. Scamper looks annoyed. Dawn hugs the two of you, gently, and giggles at Scamper. "Isn't it a lovely day?" Chitter looks around, surprised by the question. *I guess so,* he allows. Brightmark nods quietly, and leans up against Dawn's side. >From up in the Old Willow's branches you hear the chirping of a songbird. Dawn places an arm around Brightmarks shoulders, smiling at her. ** Quiet cub ** Brightmark closes her eyes, nestling into Dawn's side. Chitter skritches Scamper's head absently. Dawn strokes Brightmarks hair gently, and looks colemnly at Chitter. ** You got a new den, too? ** Brightmark gives a soft sigh, seeming somewhere between happy, and longing. Chitter hms? at Dawn. *No. Should I?* Twilight emerges from the willow tree. Twilight has arrived. Twilight wanders in, blinking in the light. "H-hi, u-um, everyone," she murmurs. Brightmark looks up at Twilight emerging from the tree.. and moves somewhat away from Dawn's side, out along the log. Dawn smiles happily at Twilight, and holds her arms out to her. ** Good morning! ** Chitter glances up at Twilight and smiles. *Hello, Blythe/Twilight*, he sends, the second symbol being somewhat jumbled. Brightmark waves a bit at Twilight, settling herself down again. -(Hi.)- Twilight hops up onto the log beside Dawn, and hugs her tightly. ==(log)==Chitter==Dawn==Twilight==Brightmark==(more log)== Brightmark stands up from the log, and walks over to the willow tree, where she sits down again. Dawn giggles at the log! Chitter glances over at Brightmark curiously, but doesn't do anything else. Dawn hugs back, gently stroking Twilight hair for a moment. ** Sleep well? ** Twilight watches Brightmark move away, looking vaguely perturbed, and replies to Chitter with a ** Hi, Chitter. ** Twilight chuckles softly, sending a reply. Dawn slips her hand around Twilights waist, and responds belatedly to Chitter. "Your den used to be in the whisperwillow, didn't it?" Brightmark sets her hands in her lap, looking down at them, a look of pondering on her face. Chitter thinks so. He can never remember which is which, OOC. Chitter hasn't moved it at any rate, OOC. Scamper has arrived. Chitter extends his arm, and his squirrel-friend leaps off his shoulder and onto the ground. Scamper bounces over to Brightmark, wiggling his nose at her. Brightmark looks up from her lap, and at the squirrel. She smiles a bit at it, and ruffles its fur for a moment, before returning to her thinking. Scamper @whees! >From up in the Old Willow's branches you hear the chirping of a songbird. Chitter tilts his head up, listening to the bird. Twilight brushes back hair with one hand, leaving the other loosely around Dawn. Dawn giggles at Scamper, following his antics. Twilight chuckles soflty at the squirrel. Dawn sends openly ** Thoughtful today, cub? ** Dawn asks Brightmark. Brightmark scritches lighty over Scamper's head. Scamper notices the attention, and does a backflip! (:3 Brightmark blinks, looking up at the send. And she quietly nods. Over on the clearing's edge, the shaped-rock fountain burbles merrily. Dawn says "What a lovely day.. I want to go swimming later..and maybe I can catch that frog!" Chitter smiles at the mention of swimming, and throws a nut at Scamper. Brightmark seems to decide something, and looks up at Dawn. -(Dawn?)- Scamper catches the nut, cracks it open, and begins to chew. Twilight rests her head on Dawn's shoulder, and looks over at Brightmark, quietly following the conversation. Dawn looks over at Brightmark, smiling happily. ** Yes, cub? ** Brightmark takes a slow breath, and sends quietly, -('m leaving...)- Twilight's quiet, not really sure what she ought to say, or indeed if she should be saying anything. Brightmark listens to utter silence descend on the clearing. Dawn takes a minute to consider that. Dawn sends openly ** Leaving? Why? To where? ** Dawn looks concerned. Brightmark shakes her head. -(Dunno... but can't stay here)- Chitter blinks, deidling. Dawn sends openly ** But Willowholt is your home.. ** Twilight looks puzzled. "W-why c-can't you s-stay here?" Brightmark looks skyward. -(Need to find... something...)- Dawn tugs at her hair with her free hand. "No-fur went to find his name.." Brightmark sends, almost as an afterthought, almost too quiet to be a sending but instead just a thought... -(Something to show me I make a difference...)- Dawn looks thoughtful. "I..suppose you are older than he was..but you always seem younger to me, somehow." Brightmark nods quietly. -(Maybe that...)- Dawn blinks at Brightmark. "Difference?" Brightmark shakes her head. -(Was born a week after him)- Chitter listens quietly, though he doesn't really understand. Brightmark looks around her. -('m useless here...)- Dawn ohs, and smiles. "Before I came to the holt, both." Dawn blinks.. "Useless??" Dawn says "Nobody is useless..not here, not with us...Oh, cub..don't think that." Brightmark continues quietly, -(Can' hunt, can' do a thing... just sit around... watching others, wishing I was them... can' just do that.)- Brightmark looks up at Dawn. -(It... hurts, to stay.)- Dawn smiles quietly, looking at Chitter. "Chitter does not hunt, either..or Sweetleaf..or the cubs." Chitter nods slightly. Dawn goes solemn again, and gives Twilight another warm hug before standing up and going over to Brightmark. Brightmark looks between Dawn and Twilight for a moment, before looking down again. -(Can't stay.)- Dawn places her arms around Brightmark, slowly. "Don't be unhappy, cubling.." Brightmark looks up at Dawn. Chitter, now somewhat isolated on the log, glances at Twilight, then fidgets a bit. Wildoak has disconnected. Scamper snuffles at Brightmark. Brightmark's mindvoice takes on a different, frustrated tone. -('m not a cub!)- Brightmark's hands seem to clench a little. -(Mom was as old as I am now when I was born! Was she a cub? Was she as... useless, as I am?)- Brightmark quietly sends, -(She's a healer... I can't do that, can't hunt either... Useless.)- Dawn looks slightly startled, and slowly releases Brightmark. Twilight fidgets with a strand of hair slightly uneasily. "E-everyone h-has s-something t-that t-they are," she says softly. Dawn says "But, cu..Brightmark...there are many of us who do neither." Brightmark looks down, seeming on the verge of crying, her body trembling. -(But what am I...?)- Chitter listens quietly to Brightmark. Brightmark straightens up, fighting back the frustration, the sadness she feels. -(I gotta find it, what I am. Can't find it here.)- Twilight nods slowly. "S-sometimes.. w-we a-all need t-to be alone, t-to.. t-to just be." She regards brightmark, concerned, and adds, "Y-you.. y-you w-will b-be back, though?" Dawn gives Brightmark another hug, looking slightly helpless, and whispers. "Yes...come back.." Brightmark looks up at Twilight for a moment at the question.. then looks up at Dawn again, and back to Twilight. -(Don't know... if I can stop the hurt I feel, then I may...)- "H-hurt?," Twilight asks. Brightmark quietly sends, -(It hurts to stay...)- Wildoak has connected. Dawn hugs Brightmark quietly, biting her lip, and goes sit by Twilight on the log. Dawn looks at the healer, questioningly. Brightmark hugs Dawn back while she can. Dawn says "I do not understand..that it can hurt to be here. But you must seek happiness your own way." Twilight locksends ** Why does it hurt? You don't have to be anything, but yourself.. ** Brightmark stands up, turning to walk back into the willow.. then looks back at Dawn, closing her eyes and sending quietly, just to her. Wildoak just took a look at you. Scamper has left. You send to Dawn, -(I'm... not sure what love is... what it feels like... but I think I feel it for you, Dawn, Firstfriend... but I don't belong here. It hurts too much to stay... I'm sorry...)- Chitter extends his hand, and his squirrel-friend jumps onto his shoulder. Chitter thinks he missed something. Again. (sigh) Wildoak did, but didn't. He understands the need to Know yourself, apart from the Tribe. It was something that was strong in his Sire's blood. Brightmark sends, and then dashes into the willow, not answering Twilight's last send. [Dashes into the Willow, into her den, for a moment or four.] Dawn locksends ** Oh, poor cub..poor Brightmark..I..I am sorry...I love you to, but as a friend..I never knew. ** You send to Dawn, Brightmark doesn't respond, her mind closed, her feelings unfindable. [She then dashes through the clearing, running out of the holt, and south to Silvie's tree to pick up a couple other things, and then on through SouthMarsh Camp, bumping into Dove on the way through.] [End Brightmark log. Pick up Foxfire.] Foxfire> Dawn goes pale, looking after brightmark. Foxfire> Twilight looks bemusedly at Dawn, then at the departing Brightmark. Foxfire> Dawn murmurs distracedly. "Yes, love.." Foxfire> Chitter skritches Scamper's head absently. Foxfire> Twilight looks mildly worried, frowning. Foxfire> Wildoak smiles, sadly. "The two-edged sword." Foxfire> Dawn sighs, and hugs Twilight, burying her head against her neck. Foxfire> Brightmark has arrived. Foxfire> Brightmark sets off up the path to the marshes. Foxfire> Brightmark has left. Foxfire> Twilight holds Dawn gently, rubbing her back. Foxfire> Brightmark slips quietly out of the tree... and suddenly dashes off into the marsh. Foxfire> And that done, Brightmark's player gotta idle to go pick up her roommate from work. :) Foxfire> Wildoak sighs. "Blood is strong...there are others of the Tribe who are not comfortable being here.... :(" Foxfire> Something rustles in the underbrush of the nearby copse. Foxfire> Wildoak fumes. Foxfire> Chitter sighs. Foxfire> Wildoak hopes there might be a small Howl or simply a song about Twilight's name change...Wildoak is interested in such things. Foxfire> Something rustles in the underbrush of the nearby copse. Foxfire> Dawn nodnods..RIll wanted to hold a howl :) Foxfire> Dawn hugs Twilight again, and looks after Brightmark as she vanishes. Foxfire> Twilight nods quietly in agreement. A few people've suggested one. She hugs Dawn back, still looking perturbed. Foxfire> Wildoak hugs Dawn AND Twighlight (They being small and he being broad for an elf) at the SAME time! *HUG* Foxfire> Dawn hugs back! Foxfire> Twilight duly returns the hugs, smiling quietly. Foxfire> Twilightfrowns a little, thinking back, contemplating. Foxfire> Dawn draws a deep breath, and pushes her hair back. Foxfire> Wildoak watches Dawn intently. Foxfire> Chitter feeds Scamper, not sure what else to do. Foxfire> Dawn blushes, looking down. Foxfire> Wildoak waits for Dawn to exhale. Foxfire> Dawn says "I..she.." Foxfire> Dawn exhales :P Foxfire> Wildoak smiles teasingly at Dawn. ** 'I..she..' isn't a complete thoughtform, lass ** Foxfire> Twilight blinks, going very quiet, and hugs Dawn gently. Eventually, she murmurs, "O." Foxfire> Wildoak stands on his head. Foxfire> Twilight giggles softly, distracted or the moment. "S-silly," she tells Wildoak. Foxfire> Wildoak arches his eyebrows....which of course, makes them look like boats with two big coconuts in them! Foxfire> Wildoak wiggles....while upside down! Foxfire> Wildoak sticks his tongue out and crosses his eyes at The two Log-maidens. :) Foxfire> Chitter, who's also on the log, pays him no heed. Foxfire> Twilight shakes her head, chuckling, before going quiet again, looking sorta worried. Foxfire> Wildoak notes that Chitter isn't a maiden. Wildoak has seen him at the pond and will confirm that. :) Foxfire> Wildoak tries to balance on one arm...and falls over! *THUD* Foxfire> Chitter notes that's why he said 'also'. (: Foxfire> Dawn giggles, despite herself. Foxfire> Dawn says "Silly Wilkoak!" Foxfire> Dawn er, Wild! Foxfire> Dawn hugs Twilight, and half smiles. "Brightmark..seems to feel..more for me, than I thought." Foxfire> Dawn then wiggles back to Wilkoak as she unidles to his antics. :) Foxfire> Wildoak props up his head on one hand, makes kissy lips at Dawn and sits up. Foxfire> Twilight nods, frowning a little. "B-but, w-well.. d-does s-she *really* f-feel, o-or j-just t-think s-she d-does..?" Foxfire> Twilight explains rather lamely, "I-I m-mean, w-when y-you're t-that young,.." Foxfire> Wildoak says "Is this a bad thing?" Foxfire> Wildoak hushes and listens to Bly-Twilight. Foxfire> Dawn sighs, and holds out a free arm to Wildoak. Hug? Foxfire> Dawn says "I..I don't know..I never really, I mean, when I was your. Well, Zalen was there.." Foxfire> Dawn blushes again. Foxfire> Wildoak gets up on his kness and walks over to the log. *HUUUGGGGG* Foxfire> Chitter stands up and walks over to the willow, stretching his legs. Foxfire> Wildoak sits on his calves and peers at Twilight. "You think she is infatuated?" Foxfire> Dawn hugs gently back, and looks from Twilight to Wildoak. Foxfire> Twilight looks back at Wildoak, "W-well, m-maybe. I-I m-mean.. I-I d-don't know. J-just t-that sh-she's s-so young, and.." Foxfire> Wildoak bounces softly. Foxfire> Dawn hugs Wilkoak again, looking confused, and smiles palely at Chitter. Foxfire> Wildoak thinks. "Errr....I'm too old, what turn is Brightmark in?" Foxfire> Wildoak messes up Dawn's hair. Foxfire> Twilight thinks. "N-not q-quite t-three e-eights, yet?" Foxfire> Wildoak hrms. "That could be, Twilight. Thats a tender age...and Dawn IS quite the attractive jewel. :)" Foxfire> Chitter is smiled at, and not sure what to make of it. Foxfire> Twilight nods to Wildoak, blushing faintly. "I-I l-like t-to think s-so, certainly." Foxfire> Dawn blushe happily at Wildoak. Foxfire> Dawn giggles, burying her head against Twilights neck again. "You're just saying that.." Foxfire> Wildoak chuckles mischieviously. "She is, don't tell her, though. She is liable to get all uppity ** And all of my facefur might fall out, too! ** Foxfire> Wildoak stretches out and wonders if he should pontificate on the tribulations of his youth. Foxfire> He decides against it. :) Foxfire> Dawn laughs, peering up at Wildoat, er WIldoak..Aw, do! Foxfire> Wildoak chuckles. "Doah! Ia'm such a Wild Dolt!" Foxfire> Chitter yawns. Foxfire> Dawn giggles, giving Wildoak another hug. "I'm glad you aren't leaving.." Foxfire> Dawn snugs Chitter OOCishly..go to bed? Or is it IC? :) Foxfire> Wildoak laughs. "Was I going somewhere? I'm fortunate that a crusty old elf such as myself is allowed to play with you cubs. :) Foxfire> Wildoak surrupticiously picks up a nut and waits for Chitter to yawn again. Hopefully. Foxfire> Twilight nibbles Dawn's ear lightly, murmuring that she meant that, and then hmphs to Wildoat. "C-cub, indeed!" Foxfire> Chitter yawns again, looking somewhat bored by conversations he doesn't IC understand. Foxfire> Dawn mrrs at Twilight softly..and eys Chitter expectantly. Foxfire> Wildoak chuckles at Twighlight. "Hee hee hee!" Foxfire> Wildoakmisses the yawn. Blast! He isn't QUITE sure whats going on. He is assuming and conjecturing. He just seems to be on the right trail. Foxfire> Dawn looks dreamily at Twilight, and gently kisses her cheek. "No cub, you..beloved." Foxfire> Twilight sighs quietly. "N-not r-really s-sure w-what t-to do.." Foxfire> Twilight chuckles to Dawn, nodding. "A-a g-good w-while since I-I was, indeed." Foxfire> Twilight whispers something in Dawn's ear. Foxfire> Wildoak giggles. "Being a cub is a frame of mind. Being NOW. So I recommend...running naked in the moonlight, swimming in the pond and swinging from tree branches! Wheeee!" Foxfire> Chitter looks back and forth between Dawn and Twilight, going from merely confused to very confused. Foxfire> Twilight, as a reference point for anyone who's not sure, is in her mid-200s. Foxfire> Twilight picks up on Chitter's confusion. "S-something m-mystifying?" Foxfire> Wildoak chuckles "Nyah NYah, I'm still older! " Foxfire> Chitter shakes his head. *I'm still confused by elf backskritching/mating/politesocialconversation.* Foxfire> Dawn giggles at the whisper..and her eyes sparkle at the mention of swimming. Foxfire> Dawn smiles happily at Chitter. "It's nice! Who want to come swimming?" Foxfire> Chitter smiles, glad to hear something he *does* understand. *Sure!* Foxfire> Twilight looks at Dawn, eyes wide for a moment. Foxfire> Dawn giggles, blushing at Twilight., then taking her hand and dragging her up. Come one! Foxfire> Dawn vanishes into the trees, going around the nearby pond. Foxfire> Dawn has left. Foxfire> Wildoak says "Swwoooosh!" Foxfire> Twilight is dragged along. Foxfire> Twilight vanishes into the trees, going around the nearby pond. Foxfire> Twilight has left. Foxfire> Chitter vanishes into the trees, going around the nearby pond. Foxfire> Chitter has left.