Log Date: 6/30/97, 7/2, 7/8 Log Cast: Paul Nighman, Shenneret Veery Log Intro: After spending the night in the home of his friend Jace Raven and his family, Paul Nighman has borrowed the other man's ship, and Paul and Shenner are now well on their way to Caspar to discover what befell Marcus Crowley and the _Quasar Bolt_. But this next leg of their journey has come with an unexpected complication, for Shenner has startled both Paul and herself by asking Paul to make love with her - and Paul has startled them both by taking her up on it. Now, with this lingering on both their minds later in the day, with Corellia now far behind them, they close in on their next destination.... ---------- Paul_Nighman sits back in the pilot seat, pursing his lips, his hands steepled and touching the tip of his nose in thought. The ship that Jace so kindly lent him is an Ilyrian Gnat ... same as the Bolt, which Paul finds simultaneously reassuringly familiar and eerily distrubing. The Hawk's Wing comes out of hyperspace, bringing Paul's thoughts out of his head and back on the matter at hand. Leaning forward he looks over the planet Sullust, pulling up the coordinates for the next jump and employing them. The Wing takes off again with an intense whir and a surge of light. Opening his mouth, Paul starts to murmur, "Hey Alx ..." when he cuts himself short, remembering forcefully that this is -not- his ship. Leaning back in the chair, he raises a fist to his lips, brushing it back and forth there, his brow knit. A voice does answer the Corellian's murmur, though this one is not generated by a computer. "Paul?" comes Shenner's soft call, just behind him, as the young redhead enters the cockpit. "Hey.. I got some food here..." Turning in his seat, Paul looks up at Shen, his hand dropping to his lap. Out of sight, out of mind seems to be the rule for the day with Paul. Whenever Shen was quiet, which she had been for the majority of the day it seemed, or out of the cockpit, it was almost as if she wasn't there at all. Paul was almost ashamed to admit to himself that he forgot all about her. However, whenever she came in, or said something to him, it was as if she were the only thing there. How he felt about her, about what had happened that morning, was still something he had not completely assimilated. Reaching up with an easy smile, he takes the proffered food from Shenner's hand, his fingers stroking over hers in the process. "Thanks," he murmurs almost shyly. He sniffs at said food curiously, but his eyes remain focused on the girl before him. It's a simple meal-pack, its heat-seals broken to warm the food within; Shen's opened the lid, too, to allow the scent of the meaty broth the container holds to escape. "Ship's rations," she observes, "but hey, it's food." She has one for herself, too. And she stands there a moment, her head dipping a little under Paul's scrutiny, though she keeps her gaze on his. "You're welcome." Taking a taste of the stuff, Paul is pleased to find that it really isn't too bad after all. "Have a seat," he offers, nodding his head toward the co-pilot seat. "Whatcha been up to ... other than fixing lunch," he adds, raising the food pack in a gesture part illustrative, part toast. Settling down into the chair indicated, Shenner sips at her cup of broth, and grins a bit. "Readin'. The disks I got in Coronet. I did another algebra lesson... played my flute for a bit, guess you can't hear it from in here with the hatch closed... thought." The Corellian pilot blows lightly on his broth, cooling it slightly. "Guess not," he replies, thinking that if this had been his ship, Alx would have opened a channel so that he -could- have heard the music. With a soft sigh, he takes a careful taste. "What's on your mind?" he asks, his voice deceptively casual. Personally, he can't imagine that she's been thinking about much else than this morning's activities ... it's certainly been on -his- mind every time he looks at the redhead. Shen's slight lowering of her eyelids, the brief blush that colors her cheeks, suggests that very topic at the center of her thoughts. But what she says is, "My mom..." There's obviously a connection between what Shen's mom did for a living and what happened between Shen and him this morning. A small flash of alarm sparks in Paul's system, as he wonders what connection -Shenner- is making between the two experiences .... "What about your mom?" he probes tentatively. Shen's green gaze, momentarily flicked out through the viewport as the sensors pick up another ship passing through hyperspace, near enough to sense, far enough away not to worry over, returns then to Paul. Whatever thought has crossed her mind must not be a troubling one, for her regard is steady, strangely peaceful. "Just... I dunno. Got to thinkin' about her... I guess I understand her a little better now. Sorta." Her words offer little illumination, but her expression helps to reassure Paul somewhat. Unable to pursue the topic further without feeling like he would be hassling Shen, he lets it drop with a soft, "Oh." His gaze flickers over to the sensor panel briefly, as they have dropped out of hyperspace. He calls up the new coordinates and orders the computer to plot a course, half expecting Alx's voice to complain bitterly about all of the work that his slave driver boss forced him to do. The ship whines and then lurches into hyperspace. Paul works on finishing his soup, feeling at a loss for words around this soft and contemplative Shenner. "Are _you_ okay?" she asks, into the silence. "Yeah, sure ... of course I'm okay," he reassures her a touch guiltily. "Why do you ask?" Shenner considers, then ventures over her broth, "Just wanna know _you_ aren't... sorry, either." Her voice takes on a shy tone for a moment or two, though her regard stays on Paul, without her looking away. Putting down his food carefully, Paul swivels his chair and gingerly removes the broth from Shenner's fingers as well. Depositing it carefully next to her, he rises again to take both of Shen's hands in his own. "I'm a little uncertain what this means in terms of our relationship ... I'm as much in the dark as you probably are, but no, I don't regret what happened." Raising her hands to his he turns them so they face up and then dips his head to place a kiss in the center of each palm. Shenner's eyes brighten, almost tenderly, as her palms are kissed. She is silent a moment, before she offers, a husky touch to her voice, "Well... just seein' what happens seems to have worked so far..." Shenner turns her left hand around for a moment, letting her fingertips brush Paul's cheek as she speaks. Gazing into her eyes thoughtfully, Paul finds that he both agrees and disagrees with that statement. The touch of her fingers on his cheek has his eyes softening. "Okay, so we stick with what we know then, eh?" "Well..." Shen pauses, then grins, sheepishly, looking down for a moment. Her cheeks turn pink, though she looks as much amused as she does embarrassed. Catching the drift of her thoughts Paul chuckles softly. "Okay, so we bend the rules occasionally and take the plunge into the unknown." However, the more Paul thinks about it, the more he realizes that nearly every experience he's had with Shen has been something new and unknown to her. Tugging on her hands lightly, encouraging her to move closer, he regards her fondly. "Scratch that," he counters. "We'll just be bold and take our chances." Shenner looks up again, her grin broadening, as she draws nearer to the Corellian. "Feels more like me bein' bold anyway," she observes wryly. "Been imitatin' boys half my life." She suddenly laughs, throatily. "For the last year, I think I been imitatin' you." "Me?" That comment sends frissions of alarm through Paul's system. _This is -exactly- what I was afraid of - that I would mold her into something, something that maybe she's not supposed to be_ Then her words sink in more firmly. _A year? We haven't been together for a year ...._ Cocking his head to one side, he gives her a curious look. "What do you mean?" The young woman grins more widely, playfully, really. "Think about it, pal... who in the galaxy has more brass than a Corellian? And you _are_ the first one I ever met..." Shenner's grin quirks. "I mean... if it squeals like a mookla it probably is one, see?" Paul's face looks like it's about to pop. "Brass? Me?" That makes him explode into laughter, dragging Shen by her arms up and out of her chair and onto his lap. "I think you're thinking of some other Corellian baby." Shenner yelps in a burst of laughter of her own, wrapping her arms around Paul's neck and shoulders to catch herself. "Yes. Brass. You." Touching his nose to hers playfully, Paul muses, "Huh ... always thought I was more of the copper type myself - easily malleable." He drops a teasing kiss onto her mouth, ignoring the beep of the ship as they drop out of hyperspace. Shenner's returning chuckle is muffled when her mouth meets Paul's, and when she pulls back for air, although she is blushing, she is also still grinning. "Pound you into any old shape, huh?" she murmurs. "Putty in your paws," he agrees cheerfully, his eyes on her wet lips. "I don't know where you get the idea that I have any brass in me," he ponders in a more serious note, but he doesn't seem overly concerned about the impression one way or the other. Shen meets Paul's gaze, unlooping an arm so that she can touch his face. There is still a kind of amazement in her contact, and in her eyes, though she keeps on that grin as she tells him, "You want a real answer to that?" "Why would I want any other?" he asks her curiously, dropping another light kiss onto those inviting lips. There's something rather delightful about the idea that he can just kiss her, touch her, any time he wants to now ... it's as if a unrealized restrictive veil had been lifted from between them. _Until your next panic attack_ he reminds himself snidely. The little ironic voice then squeals as he unrepentantly squashes it. Perhaps Shenner has sensed the lifting of this veil, too, for before she answers, she draws her fingertips across Paul's face, wonderingly, gently, almost as if she is blind and trying to learn the shape of his features... or if she is looking at him through a new, altered gaze. She traces out delicate tracks along his brow, down the left side of his face, and along his lightly stubbled jaw. As her fingers brush softly up on the right, then, seeking the line of his cheekbone, she says, "You got a couple different _kinds_ o' brass.... you know how to handle places like, oh, I dunno, Mos Eisley, for one thing. That sure takes brass. And you do things like... well, goin' to Mandalore and lookin' for lost Force artifacts. And you must have some kinda brass to still be wantin' an angsty kid like me with yah..." Her grin turns slightly self-deprecating, as she watches Paul's face for a reaction. "Mos Eisley, huh? Yeah, I can handle Mos Eisley ... got myself shot as I recall," he snipes playfully. "As for Mandalore, well, I think that's more stupidity than brass. And as for any angsty kids, well, I neither see any kids nor have I noticed any angsty ones lately ... a sweet, protective, concerned woman, yeah, sure, she's around all the time, but an angsty kid? Sorry, can't help you there." Shen smiles again at that, lopsidedly -- the veil prohibiting physical touches might have been passed, but that leaves alarmingly vulnerable feelings there to be dealt with, and the young redhead reflexively follows Paul's cue of burying reactions to compliments within teasing. "Musta been some other kid, then?" "Maybe," he murmurs amicably. "I wouldn't know." His arms wrapped about her waist tighten and lift Shen up against his chest, one hand snaking round to catch her jaw. Nuzzling at her jawline, Paul murmurs, "I'm glad you're with me Shen ...." _And scared too_ the little voice manages to croak from its smooshed exile. Shenner's arms, too, tighten their hold, and her russet head leans towards that nuzzling. She murmurs back in the same tone, "I'm glad, too," not sure if she trusts herself to say more. She hadn't expected to say what she had this morning, and every word she breathes to Paul seems new and strange. He takes advantage of her proffered throat, biting there gently then soothing the tender flesh with a kiss. "Guess I should get back to piloting," he murmurs against her skin, but he makes no effort to unseat her, or even to remove his mouth from its grazing. "We're not...." Shenner's voice roughens a moment, dropping in volume as she speaks around those attentions to her throat. ".... on autopilot... are we?" Dropping to her collarbones, Paul traces them with his lips as well, catching Shenner's drift. "Nu-uh," he purrs, "but we're in a standard orbit at the moment .... not in anyone's way," he assures her, biting once again and then soothing with his tongue. She leans back a little, resettling her arms about Paul's shoulders and neck, her hand brushing lightly against one ear. "Well... long as we ain't gonna run into nobody," she whispers, leaning forward again, to brush her cheek along his hair. Paul raises his head, catching her face in both of his hands, gazing into her eyes for a long moment before dipping his head ever so slowly toward her mouth. Green eyes hold the hazel gaze, looking much as they had in the Raven guest room... though here and now, there is less fear, and more wonder. It is Shenner who closes the slight distance between their faces, and as if her fingers' exploration of his face had not been enough, she begins to retrace their prior path, this time with her lips, and with that same delicate touch. Shuddering slightly under her exploration, Paul holds still, his fingers still lightly touching Shenner's cheeks, but he stops, allowing her the opportunity to explore, unhindered. The girl's mouth brushes fleeting contacts here, presses ever so slightly there. When she is finished with framing his face in tiny shy kisses, she follows the subtle planes of his cheeks back towards each ear, around which she lays a single loop of contact before pulling back at last, fractionally, her breath quickened in her throat and her lips softened by what she has done. A small jolt rewards Shenner's traveling mouth when it connects beneath Paul's ears. By the time her face returns to its place before his own, Paul's hazel eyes are almost a dark brown, his pupils slightly dilated. Catching the nape of her neck, he drags her to him, his lips plundering hers much the way they did back on Calamari. The back of her mind registers... Paul's ears. But she has barely enough time to consider it before she is pressed to him, and willingly, she twines her arms around the Corellian more tightly, her mouth melding with his. Taking her mouth with a passionate, edgy kiss, Paul wonders at the sudden surge of need that floods through his system. He finds himself pulling at her clothes, and it takes all of his restraint to stop them before he tears something. _What the hell?_ his mind whirls. Shen, finally, must breathe; she does it only by dint of tilting her head back a fraction of an inch. Her heart races within her chest, itself warm, pressed against Paul. She finds herself unable to pull her mouth away from his for any wider space than a breath could occupy. Paul brushes his lips across Shenner's, the tempting touch maddening in his refusal to land, to latch on. His breath mingles with her own, his hands now roaming at will over her body, pulling her hip closer, settling her on his lap with her legs stradling his. Shenner's hands cling to his neck and his shoulders, and in a sudden flash of wondering insight turns one hand upward, her fingertips grazing there along Paul's ear, pressing ever so slightly into his flesh. A strangled groan breaks free from his throat at her touch, and his lips possess hers, demanding, insisting, taking. His hands pull at her clothes, removing her shirt from her pants and sliding inside to find her flesh, one palm searing her back and the other finding one breast and circling it possessively. And Shen gasps, a fraction of an instant, before her mouth is claimed. Twice in one day? _Learn something new every day,_ she dizzily recollects her own words to this man, before his hands find where they are going, and the resultant quiver jolts along her sine. If ever Shen doubted his interest, she would know his desires now. Pressed against him, waist to waist, his arousal is quite evident between them. Her reaction only enflames him further. Pulling at her clothes further, he manages to pull down the neckline of her shirt, exposing the other breast, which he laves with his tongue. The young redhead shakes more palpably in Paul's embrace, then, gives a noticeable twitch. A tiny little noise, perhaps a groan, perhaps a whimper, escapes her. Paul gentles his hands, feeling a sense of control to return to him after the initial flashburn. His lips return to Shenner's collarbones, his hands dropping to her waist and massaging there. Releasing a shuddering sigh, Shen leans her cheek towards Paul's head, her arms looping lightly about his back. A few smaller twitches move through her slender frame, and she makes a small baffled-sounding noise at herself. _That's not a sound of desire_ Paul realizes, and wrapping his arms around Shen, he hugs her for a moment, his hormones settling and quieting slowly. _Jeez, what kind of animal are you?_ he wonders at himself, considering the fact that he had only just taken Shenner's virginity this very morning. He keeps the frown on his face out of his voice. "Sorry, wasn't thinking. Are you okay?" When she can meet Paul's eyes, Shen sheepishly half-smiles, and mumbles, "I... guess I'm kinda tryin' to still get used to it? I mean... my body is, or somethin'..." And she blushes, but she also pipes, "I'm okay...!" "S'okay," he reassures her, rubbing his hands along the girl's shoulders. "I don't know what I was thinking other than the fact that I wasn't thinking," he admits. Brushing a finger across her cheeks, the Corellian smiles. "You're blushing," he teases her with a smile. "Yeah, well..." Shen grins crookedly, her gaze dropping a little to Paul's neck... and his open collar. Her blush deepens, as she sallies back, "So?" "It's sweet," he mumbles softly, touching her bright cheeks again. _Sweet?_ Paul can't remember the last time he was with a woman and it was -sweet-. It sounded so corny ... so silly ... so, so ... nice ..._ Releasing her now, Paul allows Shen to move if she chooses to, his attention already becoming distracted by his realization and the insistent beeping on his console. Corny though being called 'sweet' might sound -- and evidently, it's astonishing, for Shen gapes a moment at it -- the girl seems to like it a lot. Her grin broadens, her eyes brighten, and for a moment, she looks at Paul with a very tender gaze. The console's beeping distracts her too, then, and she shifts, murmuring, "Lemme get out of your way..." Catching her arm quickly, Paul leans forward and drops a small kiss onto her lips, murmuring, "You're not in my way." He then settles back letting the redhead slide from his lap, her eloquent gaze and his corresponding response bringing a slight blush of embarrassment to his own features. He turns to the console, silencing it readily with one hand, and pulling the coordinates for their final jump. "Okay, well, one more and we're there," he comments, putting the ship into hyperdrive. Grinning again softly, Shenner shyly returns that small kiss, before slipping back enough to let Paul handle the controls. "This'll be my... sixth planet," she observes. "You well traveled wench," Paul fires back cheerfully, "and all by the age of eighteen ... you know, many women haven't travelled nearly as much by that age." Of course, bringing up her age is a reminder that Paul would rather he -hadn't- brought up. _Crade robber!_ one part of his mind shouted. _Shut up!_ responded another. "I think you'll like Caspar," he says, as if he hadn't a care in the world, "I don't think the forest matches Corellia, or the ocean Calamari, but the city itself is pretty great." He turns to look at Shen for a moment, before returning his gaze to the controls. "I rather consider it my home away from home," he adds. That seems to sit well with her. Shenner lowers herself into the co-pilot's seat, smiling a bit. Then murmuring, "Caspar. Huh. Saw Caspar people before..." "You have huh? Where?" he murmurs in response, only paying her half attention, the other half on the controls and what arriving at their final destination will mean. "Marcus is a Caspar native," he notes on a softer note, his brow dropping, concern etching small lines at the corners of his eyes and mouth. "On Etti IV... and the _Alderaan_," Shenner answers, considering. "I, uh, think I kinda met the President." Her voice softens a bit, with rough embarrassment. That catches Paul's attention, his head swiveling to meet Shenner's eyes. "You're kidding? Man, you are nothing if not a constant surprise to me," Paul comments, humor touching his eyes and lips, helping ease the strained lines there. "What happened?" Shenner thinks a moment, and bites her lip. "Well... she was on the _Alderaan_ when Luke took me up there, see? And there was this pilot or somethin', who was with her people...." Shenner abruptly frowns, her eyes going darker. Catching the flash of darkness, Paul turns his chair so that he's facing Shenner. Steepling his fingers he leans back and murmurs, "Go on," in a curious voice tinged with a slightly protective edge. The young woman blows out a sigh. "Well, I met this guy on Etti IV, see. While I was still pretendin' to be a boy. And, well, I guess I didn't fool him or somethin'. Saw him again up on the _Alderaan_ and he asked me why I was hidin' behind a lie, and _then_ he kinda... flipped out on me." Poking at one arm of the chair, Shen goes on, frowning in earnest now, "He was a karkin' nutcase. Told me I was gonna do what he said. Said a 'pretty boy' like me could get into all kinds of accidents." Paul's eyes darken unbidden at her words, his temper rising slightly despite the past tense of the experience. He means to say, something like _and then what?_ but instead he hears himself utter the words, "Did he hurt you?!" in a tone as dark as his expression. Shen looks to Paul, then, taken aback by that protective growl in his voice, and the sudden hard set of his features. Momentarily amazed, she blinks once, then answers quickly and steadily, "No... see, that's what baffled the hells outta me, 'cause I told him to back the hells off and he just kinda fell over and started screamin'." She swallows, once. "I woulda smacked him upside the head with my guitar if he'da tried somethin'. But he just fell. I got General Calhoun and that was the last I saw of 'im, 'cause Grath took me to Palanhi a little while after." Shaking his head, Paul murmurs, "Damn, but if you aren't the busiest of women, meeting all kinds of wierdos, myself included." Rubbing at the stubble on his chin, the dangerous glint fades from his eyes, his frame relaxing once again against the support of his chair. "I think you're right, sounds like he was crazy or something." Shen's red head bobs. "He was yellin', "No, master!" and "I won't!" and stuff like that." She frowns again, then adds, "Well, anyway, this lady Ms. Dusten talked to me about it afterwards. Nobody told me she was the President, but I heard that pilot guy call her that, so." The name is familiar, though Paul has never even seen the woman, let alone met her. He nods in confirmation of Shenner's words just as the ship comes out of hyperspace. "Well, maybe you'll see her again," he murmurs, his gaze shifting to the planet beneath them, "'cause we're here." Shenner snickers. "What, like we're gonna bump into her at a cafe? I'll believe that when I see it..." She sits up, though, looking out curiously through the viewport. "You never know," is the Corellian's sing-song reply. "Besides, Gods only know where we might end up once we land." His words are cut off by a hail from another ship, requesting his purpose on Caspar. Paul doesn't even blink, but hails back equally that they are visiting on the basis of personal business. After a few moments they are cleared and given the go ahead. Paul begins to manuever the ship, heading into the atmosphere and landing. Apparently the check is merely standard procedure. Shenner chuckles a bit, and says, "What, gonna take me to the presidential mansion or somethin'? You know how to show a girl a good time, Paul Nighman...!" Her tone is teasing, though the look she slides her companion over it is shyer. The Corellian laughs despite his concentration on landing and his concern for his friend and his ship, which grows with their ever increasing descent. He misses her glance, his own eyes focused on the landing pad as the approach it. "No, I was thinking that perhaps you were going to take me ... after all, you're the one with the connections." Shenner splutters. "I'd be _real_ karkin' surprised if she remembered who I am, pal." "I'm kidding Shen, just kidding," he murmurs, bringing the ship down with a light touch. The chair swivels once again, and Paul fixes Shen with a cooling expression, the few lines on his face creasing in proportion with his growing anxiety. "Okay," he says, his good mood dissipating like fog exposed to harsh sunlight, "I need to drop by the hospital to see if Marcus or his doctor is there. Do you want to wait here or come with?" Shen looks quieter, now, as if in response to that shift in Paul's demeanor. "I'll come with yah," she offers. [And with that, Shenner and Paul head off to look for Marcus Crowley. To be continued....]