[This log was originally submitted to Natil's archive by Eveshka.] Date: Mon, 9 Oct 1995 20:29:21 -0400 From: Eveshka Subject: Winnowill Vs. Eveshka <= Stalemate, but Vesh is back In... [Grin. 'Vesh stuck her head out of her room, and Winnowill was right there waiting for her...] Eveshka pales further. ** Lord Winnowill.... I had not expected this - visit.... ** [Eveshka backs into her room, Winnowill following.] Eveshka's Chambers(#9563RL) Eveshka's chambers have recently been Shaped. Airy and light, the room is almost etherial. Silk curtains hang, covering the door to the Western Hall. Upwards, near the top of the room, the blue sky shines brilliantly through a 'window'. The room is plain, no fancy shaping, nor anything on the walls, but the elegance of simplicity remains. Graceful curves and flowing arches grace the room and seem to be the only decoration. Contents: Winnowill Obvious exits: Sky Western Hall Winnowill says "Feeling somewhat antisocial with your Lord, are you, Eveshka?" Winnowill laughs with a breath, "don't be coy with me," she traces her fingertips over the edge of the wall, not looking at you, "you knew exactly what to expect." Eveshka looks down at her feet. ** I know... ** Winnowill looks back at you, "And you had the gall to return even still. Answer me that, Eveshka, what possessed you to even 'think' you could pull off something like that and then return as if nothing had happened? Eveshka shakes her head. ** Honestly, I remember little of that night....I did not even know it was your - blood - on my dagger until Neela told me what I had done. ** Winnowill makes a motion as if it had been nothing. "Blood is something that wolfriders pay attention to. If losing any actually mattered, I would have sought you out well before now. Attacking me was not a wise move, and your disrespect was unquestionably ...Unacceptable. What troubles me most though .. for all the planning that must have gone into your little escapade with Azeure, the both of you should have known you would fail .. and fail you did." Eveshka shakes her head again. ** I did not know what he was going to do! ** Winnowill looks back over her shoulder, out of your room, "There are more important things on this world than negotiating our consciouses with who is a better leader. That can be dealt with at some other time after the menace and nuisance of the wolfriders...has been dealt with" Winnowill looks sharply back at you, "If you didn't know, as you claim, then you should have made it your very first objective to find out. Eveshka looks slightly disconcerted. ** WolfRiders? Again? ** Winnowill says "the lack of cohesion you have with those you choose as your friends astounds me." Eveshka blushes a bit, and looks down. ** My attention was elsewhere... trying to make sure Gerren wouldn't harm himself, or anyone else.... and ** Winnowill says "yes, again. Again because today is one more day in their lives, one day closer to their deaths. And their pitiful lives will continue. What irks me, though, is that gliders willingly sacrifice their lineage to those animals" Winnowill says "And seeing that your dagger finished it's job?" Eveshka pales. ** No.... and trying vainly not to fall in love..... ** Eveshka looks at her hands. Winnowill folds her hands together and takes a step, albeit a cautious step, closer to you Winnowill says "And who, praytell, do you plan on sowing oats with?" Eveshka doesn't seem to notice your step forward. ** I doubt he even cares. ** Winnowill says "Do not speak in riddles with me, child. It serves no purpose" Eveshka sends openly ** Sar.... I love Sar.... ** Eveshka stares at her hands. Winnowill rolls her eyes, then closes them. Eveshka sighs softly. Winnowill narrows the gap between herself and you, then places her hand on your shoulder, "Eveshka, child, do you know what the one thing gliders should fear the most?" Eveshka looks up, paling. Her send is as quiet as a whisper falling on deaf ears. ** And I am cursed to love.... for love is that which we all should fear... ** Winnowill shakes her head, "No, Eveshka, the one thing every one of us fears the most is the personal inability to control their thoughts. If we do not fear that, or we let our emotions control us, then were are animals. If you think you love .. Winnowill says "Then you'd better be certain it is what you feel and that feeling is not only what you want, but what you have allowed to exist in yourself" Winnowill smiles very calmly, softly, shaping her words to a maternal affect, "Because after you do that, you can simply extract this silly notion from your head and be done with it." Eveshka's eyes meet yours, and they seem to have a light within. It may be an angry light, or something else. ** I wish I had Recognised him, and not that WolfRider! ** Winnowill says "Loving something that cannot, or will not, love you back, is not worth loving at all. The whole matter of love is the understanding that the life you lead is not as good as it could be .. which, consequently, indicates you have failed." Eveshka sends openly ** He is quite gentle with me. His kisses hold passion. ** Winnowill smirks, "tender caresses are meant to incite pleasure. An open ear and a soft caress, the giving of pleasure, providing for your needs .. those same things that the outside wants to teach you as love .. Winnowill says "Those are the very same things that you already possess. A rock can give you those things .. it makes your home, it comforts you, it can even be your companion, albeit a quiet one." Eveshka seems to stare past you. ** His eyes show me something... something faint and feared by him... ** Winnowill gazes steadily into your eyes, "When you look into someone's eyes, the only thing you will ever see is yourself .. a reflection." Eveshka's eyes are there, but thier focus is not. ** I do not see myself in his eyes. I see something else instead... ** Winnowill says "And what do you see in my eyes?" Eveshka focuses her eyes, and looks. Her eyes widen, and she pales. Eveshka steps backwards a bit. ** I see - I see the Mountain! ** Winnowill says "You are a foolish child, Eveshka, to believe in such prattle. Who has been telling you these things? Love will not feed you, it will not cloth you, it will not stop the rain. It doesn't inspire you to learn something new, it doesn't help you create." Winnowill says "What then, if you are so knowledgable about this phantom emotion, is love?" Winnowill takes her hand from your shoulder and folds her arms at her stomach Eveshka ponders for a moment. ** Love? Love is the ability to do this... ** Eveshka steps forward, and hugs you. Winnowill lets you embrace her, "That is affection, or for purposes of your demonstration, an intimate embrace. If this love of yours is so omnipotent, why then would the wolfriders rely on recognition to find their mates? Why couldn't they spend time..with each other, the proper thing to do, like gliders, and High Ones forbid, love each other. If such a revolting thing existed, don't you think those mongrels that many of you seem to find exquisitely interesting make use of it?" Eveshka continues to hug. ** Why then must we rely on Recognition? There are no answers. The High Ones knew love... and are we so far removed from them, that we have forgotten it? ** Winnowill says "My, my, (she looks down at you with a mock passion on her face) don't you seem to be the historian. Did you know any of them personally?" Eveshka, still holding on to you, doesn't see your face. ** I am not old enough to have had that honour. ** Winnowill says "The high ones may have used the word, 'love', to describe their advanced society simply because we were incapable of fathoming it. It is not the other way around .. that love existed and we have forgotten it .. it simply never existed." [Okay, I've lost my mind... I'm actually -=hugging=- Winnowill!] Winnowill says "Perhaps you knew a Firstborn" Eveshka sends openly ** I served Voll... ** Winnowill says "In fact, I recall a certain firstborn who befriended a very young half glider and scarred the child's face when he went into a furious rage. Yet he also claimed to love her as well. Is that the love you knew from your high ones?" Eveshka sends openly ** But beyond that, I learned from Egg... ** Winnowill says "And lest we forget Voll also isolated us from the evils of the wolfriders." Winnowill says "You learned love from a rock? Or the rock shaper? And you have illustrated my point, Eveshka, that a rock can provide the same things you are looking for in an elf. Call it what you wish .. but this 'love' of yours is a phantom" Eveshka steps back, her hands instinctivly reaching for yours. ** Love is painful. It was never meant to be easy. The High Ones know that! If love were meant to be easy, then I'd only love one..... but I don't...... ** Winnowill leans forward carefully, "And who else, praytell, do you love?" Eveshka sighs. ** Neela.... ** Winnowill interlaces her fingers, "My, my, you have been a busy glider. Loving Sar and Neela, and still making time to play a part in a revolution in the mountain. Eveshka looks down. ** I never wanted to be part of the fight... ** Winnowill smiles thoughtfully, "Don't think of it as a fight, Eveshka, think of it as an orgy of 'love' making. We were sharing our feelings with those nearest to us with physical contact and very intimate touches (her voice is, of course, sarcastic). Eveshka sends openly ** I wish I could have a child by Sar... ** Winnowill takes a step back from you, "You haven't learned to take care of yourself yet and now you want to take care of a child?" Winnowill stares at you incredulously Eveshka smiles faintly. ** Love. ** Winnowill finishes your one word blaspheme to her ears, "is a waste of your time. You have better things to do." Eveshka sends openly ** And furthering the Gliders is not worthy of persuing? ** Winnowill narrows her eyes, "Filthy minds lead to filthy habits. We are immortals, foolish child. You want to overpopulate us with this 'love' rubbish?" Eveshka sends openly ** I want a child! Is that so wrong? ** Winnowill says "I want, I want, I want .. me, me, me, me. There are a lot of other gliders working hard every day to bring you food, to make your clothes, to keep your home intact. The least you could do is return the help, but your obsession with having a child has made you one yourself" Winnowill says "One child by you is enough" Winnowill raises an eyebrow, "what now, Eveshka? I commend you on your preserver tales, but was not quite aware you were so prolific with them." Eveshka smiles darkly. ** Love can be used as a weapon... and I have used it... ** Winnowill says "Do go on, your prattle has yet to prove any point, but I'll entertain the thought that something productive awaits" Eveshka sends openly ** I know where they are. Azeure, and those who follow him... ** Winnowill shrugs, "it doesn't matter. They have run out into the 'big, bad world,' Eveshka. They lack unity, they lack courage. When they wish to learn it, they will return. If they become lost, as gliders in the past have done, I will go find them. Eveshka shakes her head. ** Don't believe that. They have a purpose, and a goal. They are not lost. ** Winnowill looks at you closely, "I take care of the gliders, Eveshka. You do not realize that, but it is my responsibility, it is my own passion. There was no need to foil their plot, or yours, simply because no one is capable of providing what I do. For that reason, I simply have to wait for common sense to prevail" Eveshka smiles a bit twistedly. Eveshka sends openly ** And what will become of me? For I know you are not done with me. ** Winnowill says "All of them lack cohesion .. a common unity. If they ever knew what they were fighting for, I can guarantee you that most of them have lost sight of it by now" Eveshka passes your send off, smiling to herself. Winnowill smiles in her own, sinister, dark way. "I have no need to reprimand you, it seems. All you need to do is express yourself to Sar, as you plan on doing. When your heart and this 'love' of yours is utterly crushed along with your very hopes, I will welcome you back, as always. Of course, I can offer you no cure for a pain or a wound that does not exist .. so you are making, fighting, and dying in your own war" Eveshka sends openly ** He knows I love him. You are too late for that. ** Winnowill leans her head back and laughs a bit louder than she's been speaking, "And when you pray for a child, Eveshka, who do you think you will be praying to?" Eveshka sends openly ** I will ask you. And I hope that he will agree. ** Winnowill says "There is only one elf on this entire planet that can guarantee that you have a child .. one that manages to be conceived and born. And it is no one that knows 'love', but the person you have chosen to scorn and ridicule. You can't have it both ways," Winnowill says "So you'd best make your choice on what it's going to be" Eveshka smiles sadly. ** I do not scorn you. I love you dearly. And I cannot ridicule my own Mother.... I cannot ridicule You. ** Winnowill smiles thoughtfully, "Well then, daughter, here is a little advice. Act like a glider, or live like a wolfrider, because your flippant tone and snide comments are things I would expect from those animals, not from any so called daughter of mine! Eveshka sends openly ** They are the actions of one who has had her mind twisted by the likes of Alorn... ** [...and my senses proclaim it's a dangerous game...] Winnowill says "Who should you blame, the person who has broken something, or the person who has put something fragile in a convenient place to be broken?" Eveshka sends openly ** Perhaps the blame lies on both. ** Winnowill takes a loose hold on your collar, narrowing her eyes, "if you want a child, simply asking isn't going to cut it." Eveshka sends openly ** You have returned Ktai to my life. For that I am deeply grateful. And I wish that it had been my stomach, and not yours. What would you ask of me? ** Winnowill smiles to herself, "I am pleased that you care to ask." Winnowill says "It does seem I have several gliders who have, shall I put it, lost their way. It would be in everyone's best interest if they were returned, with all intentions of ill left outside, as soon as possible." You say "And you mean?" Winnowill looks over you, "if you need me to explicate, you can ask later. I must attend to .. private matters, now." Eveshka nods. ** I will - think over what we have discussed. ** Winnowill smiles drily, "As you like it." Winnowill turns to leave Winnowill has left. [End log.]