Log Date: 3/23/96
Log Intro: As autumn creeps slowly into Lostholt, and gossip about the
visiting Rayek provides more than one night's worth of entertainment --
at least as long as Rayek is not in earshot -- Ynderra ponders the weighty
issues of what to do about her suitors Kai and WindStorm, and how to
cope with the cub she now senses within her. Uncertain whether it's a good
idea, Ynderra nevertheless seeks out the person in the Holt she thinks
is most likely to give her answers....

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You locksend ** <shyly> Leetah? ** to Leetah.

Leetah locksends ** Yes, Ynderra <gentleness, interest> **
Leetah locksends ** What is on your mind, kitling? **

You locksend ** Um, can we talk maybe? ** to Leetah.

Leetah locksends ** Of course. Come to our den? **

Cutter and Leetah's Den(#2716RJL)
In the seasons since Leetah returned from the Sun Village, she has once again 
  made her presence here known. The silks and brightly colored pillows have 
  reappeared, and a gentle perfume once again fills the room. Sleeping furs 
  and woven blankets are piled neatly in a corner, where they may be sat upon. 
  The window has once again been filled with colorful and shiny mementos from 
  the desert, lovingly tended.. All in all, there is a joyful air about the 
  room.
Contents:
Leetah
Obvious exits:
Out <O>  

Ynderra creeps in, hopefully. "Don't want to disturb..."

Leetah smiles, from where she is seated on the furs near the window.
Leetah says quietly, "You are no disturbance. How are you?" Her question is 
  not idle, but filled with genuine interest and concern.

Ynderra has, as she ventures into the den, one small hand lingering around her 
  belly. "I just... I dunno, I needed to talk to somebody..." She trails off, 
  her voice going up a bit as if asking a question, though she doesn't look 
  _too_ uncertain. But at your own question, she giggles a little. "I'm really 
  healthy. I think. Have been ever since the cub was made..."

Leetah gestures with one delicate brown hand, "Please make yourself 
  comfortable." Her lips curve with pleasant memory at Ynderra's last words.
Leetah nods, understanding. She rests her chin on her hand, watching you. 
  "What do you wish to talk about?" She smiles, memory of her own pregnancy 
  making her almost glow.
Leetah says quietly, "It is a truly wonderful gift you have been given."

Ynderra kneels down on the furs nearby, then settles herself gently to sit 
  down off her legs. "I'm... I'm scared," she blurts.

Leetah nods, as though she expected that. She smiles softly and holds out a 
  hand to you. "It is wonderful and scary at the same time, isn't it?" She 
  chuckles, "I was so worried when I was bearing Suntop and Ember. I could 
  imagine all kinds of awful things happening. But I -felt- it to be right. Do 
  you not feel the same?"

Ynderra clasps the hand readily enough and raises a round blue gaze to you. 
  "Mother hasn't said much to me about it... I, um, guess it makes her 
  remember Father..." The maiden smiles weakly. "And it really scared me a 
  lot, being Recognized..."

Leetah nods, smiling warmly, "That, too, is a blessing and a curse in one." 
  She chuckles, "It is so sudden, and so unbidden."
Leetah shakes her head, "When we Recognized, I could not stand the sight of 
  Cutter. Now I could not live without him." She smiles at you, ready to 
  listen to your story.

Ynderra, as you share all that with her, stares at you in some measure of 
  wonder. She hadn't quite expected to be openly received -- does it have to 
  do with Rayek being here, she wonders? -- but she takes the chance and runs 
  with it, babbling anxiously, "I was hiding for days, but then I fell in the 
  pool, and Kai and Strongbow came and got me and everything... and I HATED 
  how I felt and thought Kai just HAD to help me fix it, and I could feel his 
  magic trying to wake up mine..."

Leetah smiles understandingly. Her eyes dance, "What was it like with -two- 
  healers?"

Ynderra blurts, "Myriel said she could feel it from here...!" Awed by the 
  notion, the maiden suddenly gives a tiny giggle.

Leetah genuinely wishes to help, and share with you, bringing you to equal 
  footing with her.
Leetah laughs, delightedly. "Ahhh. I had wondered." Her green eyes twinkle.

Ynderra touches her belly with both hands, and peers down at it. She whispers, 
  voice very small, "Did you... know... anything? I mean, just after? I 
  mean... boy or girl or both, or something like that?"

Leetah tilts her head. "You know when you go to heal, how there is a warmth 
  before your magic lets you know quite where the hurt is, precisely what it 
  is and how to fix it, that anticipation? That is what I remember from the 
  time of conception. Like a joy building. You can't quite name it or touch it 
  just yet. But it clarifies itself with time."

Ynderra confides wide-eyedly, "He's going to be a boy. I knew that...! I 
  think... because of me and Kai both being healers, you know?"

Leetah smiles and nods. She laughs suddenly, "Having both when you are looking 
  for one or the other... that was a bit confusing at first."

Ynderra says decisively, "Just one..." She pulls in a breath. "He... tickles. 
  I think. Um. I-I'm still scared! I..."

Leetah squeezes your hand. "There's nothing to be scared of," she smiles. 
  "It's wonderful, I promise!"

Ynderra blurts, "I don't know how to raise a cub..."

Leetah chuckles softly, "I felt the same way as you, for all I had over a hand 
  of centuries on you. Do not fear. The whole tribe takes a hand in the 
  raising of a cub."

You say "I... I keep hoping so...! Oh, Leetah..."
Ynderra shivers, wide-eyedly.

Leetah smiles, delight and calm radiating from her.
Leetah says "Kitling, it will be wonderful. Trust me."

Ynderra murmurs tinily, "I just... remember Myriel... it was hard for her, you 
  know..."

Leetah nods. "So I heard." 
Leetah says "Between you and me and Kai... I think this cubling will be easy, 
  indeed."

Ynderra breathes hopefully, "You'll help...?"

Leetah smiles warmly, "Of course. I wouldn't miss it for both moons!"

Ynderra starts to smile, slowly at first, and then radiantly.

Leetah beams at you, as delighted as you, or nearly at any rate. She squeezes 
  you hand again.

Ynderra suddenly takes your hand and presses it lightly to her stomach. "Do 
  you feel him? You must... you're better than I am..."

Leetah's hand glows softly, radiating warmth from the palm through the capable 
  fingers. Her expression seems to glow as well, and she smiles. ** Healthy, 
  and loved. **

A tiny life, there, barely detectable... but nevertheless there. Ynderra grins 
  tremulously. "I... I have to talk to Kai still... and WindStorm... I..."

Leetah listens as she senses.

Ynderra asks shyly, "Do you think... Cutter'll let them both stay?"

Leetah smiles and nods. Her eyes dance again, "He let me stay, didn't he?" She 
  winks.

You say "That's different, I mean... you're his mate!"

Leetah grins, "And they are yours, am I right?"
Leetah says "Cutter is not in the habit of separating mates."

A shadow crosses Leetah's face, only briefly, as thought thinkin of another.

Ynderra admits, blushing a little, "I'm, um, not sure."

Leetah laughs, "Well, I am sure he will allow them to stay until you've made 
  up your mind." She seems to find this very amusing. She smiles companionably 
  to you, like an older sister, winking.

You say "I'll need all the help I can get...!"

Leetah nods, smiling conspiratorily, "We'll see what we can do."

Ynderra asks plaintively, "Do you have any ideas?"

You say "I mean... I thought maybe, last Howl, I'd join with both of 'em, but 
  then I Recognized Kai and everything got kind of... um... mucked up."

Leetah smiles, "There is no reason you couldn't have a three-bond if you so 
  wished."

Ynderra nibbles her lip. "Unless they don't like each other..."

Leetah gazes at you with amusement, "Have you asked them?"

Ynderra shakes her head, slowly.

Leetah pats your hand, "Perhaps you should ask them before you worry yourself 
  about it too much."

Ynderra nods slowly, then abruptly turns, and hugs you. "I should... thank 
  you, Leetah...!"

Leetah hugs you warmly, still smiling. "You're very welcome, Ynderra. Whenever 
  I can help, please let me know."
Leetah pulls back to look at you, "And if ever you wish to talk about healing, 
  I am always willing to work with you there, too."

Ynderra smiles, shyly. "I'd... like that." Her smile brightens, and abruptly, 
  she pipes, "Thank you! I should find them!" and skitters out.

[End log.]