"A Woman's Place" Log Date: 6/6/99 Log Cast: Thomas, StormBearer, Milane, Faanshi Log Intro: The company of Mongrels led by Thomas Murako has departed from Haven -- and with them are riding one Sylvan Herald and a halfbreed shudra healer. It's Faanshi's second journey by land anywhere, and the experience so far is proving to be full of startling new notions and experiences: riding on a horse. Beholding for the first time the changes wrought by autumn on the leaves of trees. Discovering a Mongrel woman who seems to adhere to Varati ways at least in manners and speech. Observing among the company a camaraderie and equality she has never before witnessed... and among those who ride at the company's head, a ready willingness to discuss, even in front of her humble self, matters that seem to her inexperienced mind to be the weighty, important things that are the stuff of the conversation of leaders of men. Most startling of all, however, is the evidence that the man Faanshi once knew as a naraki has brought about an astonishing transformation in himself. He carries weapons. He wears armor. Dozens of Mongrel men and women look to him for leadership, and he speaks with eloquence fit enough to awe a simple shudra maiden. In short, to Faanshi, Thomas Murako appears to have become a Warlord... and while Thomas has continued to be kind and gracious to her, still, the young halfbreed can't help but begin to feel a little fear towards him, especially when watching him interact with those who follow his leadership... ---------- Darkness has begun to fall over the landscape, the sun's rays dying over the horizon. The group of travellers has made their way off the main road and into a small grove that will serve as a campsite for the evening. Though they started late in the day, a good deal of distance was covered, with the party ending up slightly to the South of the Ettowealona's territory. Those who are more experienced in such things begin to help in setting up tents and shelters, Thomas and others lending their strong backs and skill. Fires are set up within the camp and within a half hour the air is strong with the scent of fragrant meals. It takes Murako sometime before he has finished his own tent, but with the aid of others a camp fire is soon burning before it. Here is where one would find the Mongrel leader, his head bent over a bucket of water. Having removed his shirt in the process of working, he now splashes some of that liquid on his face and arms to cool himself. Though many will sleep in tents tonight, there are ceraintly some who prefer too sleep beneath the open stars. One of these, is the Sylvan Herald, StormBearer. He has already checked out the layout of the immediate area surrounding the grove, and is now approaching the newly made campfire. However, one might note that his crow is nowhere to be seen. Versed in hard labor and perhaps stronger than many of the mongrel men who work to make camp for the community, Milane begins to help pitch wood pikes into the dirt below and throw heavy animal skin coverings over them. There is quiet leadership to the mongrel woman as she maternally directs her brothers and sisters in the most efficient way to place tents and to allow for protection from the perils of night. A dirty and callused hand is placed gently on one of the younger mongrel boy's backs as he fails to throw an animal hide properly -- he is just too little yet. And if a woman can do it, why can't he. Milane leans down before him and mutters, "Acha, child. There will be many more times. . ." She smiles, and pushes the boy along to get some warm food by one of the many fires burning alongside the tents. Slightly worn from the hard labor, Milane goes to the tent that has been pitched for her and Faanshi. The societal rules for what is "proper" have not necessarily been defined in this situation, as tents weave in and out of the camp, holding both men and women. There is no separation. There is no shame. They are brothers and sisters, a nation. Milane removes her shirt and pulls it over her head to allow her skin to feel the refreshing chill of night air, and to ease the placement of fire-warmed water on her breasts. It does not even occur to her that this is improper. While bringing a cupped hand of water over her head, Milane engages in sweet chatter with Faanshi. "Acha, Imphada. I think we shall be in charge of the evening meal. I have my masala spices, if you have a recipe?" Not nearly so large and grand as the mighty hosts of the Varati with whom Faanshi had once journeyed, not by several long shots, is this company of Mongrels. But still, it is a sizeable company, composed primarily of strangers, and the shudra girl is rather daunted from the moment she climbs awkwardly down from Thomas's white horse. Milane's presence proves a boon, however. Unconsciously latching onto the older woman as a source of direction and advice, the brightly garbed maiden silently trails about after her, lending her aid to such tasks as tent construction -- apparently, Faanshi is not entirely unfamiliar with such a process. And she willingly conveys needed items into the hands of those who know what to do with them. But when Milane turns to offer her this new suggestion, and when Milane strips down in front of her, Faanshi is once more taken aback. Her gaze swiftly dips down to her feet, as she admits softly, "I... do not know much of recipes, but I could carry dishes to serve the food, if it is needed...!" Thomas finishes with the water, his large hands scooping the last of the liquid onto his chest and then letting out a soft exhale. Turning away from the bucket, the Mongrel clears his throat and surveys the camp for a few moments, his darkened gaze flitting past all the inhabitants till it comes to a rest upon Faanshi and Milane. He watches them for a moment or so, letting his hands fall to his sides. The /reason/ for this extended perusal could be because of the Mongrel woman's scantily-clad form, or perhaps the dichotomy between the shudra girl and her newfound companion. Smiling to himself, he looks towards the approaching StormBearer next and waves, "Greetings, StormBearer. I trust you have settled yourself in?" His other hand trails through his hair, making it slightly wet as well. Moving towards the campfire, he grabs his sword from a place where it was set aside, carrying the weapon towards a log, where he rests it. Bending down a touch, the fire reflects against his tanned skin, its wetness giving him an almost luminescent sheen. Again he speaks to the Sylvan, "Evening meal will be ready soon. I wish I could say it would be more extravagant, but I had not time to hunt for fresh meat." StormBearer's face is a mix of emotions, but for the time, he seems to be happy. "Greetings Thomas. You are correct. I found a Pleasant place to spend the night, If I choose to sleep." he says as he approaches the fire, taking a seat on the ground near it, he continues "I have eaten nothing but grass for a week on previous journeys. I am sure that this will be a feast compared to those times." he brings the lute over his back, setting it comfortably on his lap. A few men have stopped to stare on the bare breasted form of Milane next to the demure and proper Faanshi. It does not stop her from the pouring of water along her torso, wetting her muscled torso after a bout of hard labor. She is not a lady, and therefore, does not need to keep herself well veiled. She continues speaking with her newfound companion. "Oh, your help with dishes would be so appreciated, Imphada. . ." Milane closes her eyes and leans over the small fire that warms her skin and murmurs under her breath, "Do us peace for our children, In life or kine or horses Slay not our people in anger, Ushas! Bearing oblations we invoke Thee ever." A private prayer. Milane then refocuses her dirt-brown eyes on Faanshi while putting a black blanket over her torso to cover what she must. "Let us go join Thomas and the others, so we may keep each other company as the night becomes beautiful." She bows slightly at the waist, while flashing a reassuring smile at the Varati clad maiden. "I will only go if you will join me, Imphada?" "I... I am only Faanshi," the girl in the blue, red, and gold silks protests at Milane's repeated usage of 'imphada' to her, "but... all right, yes..." Not entirely certain how going to join Thomas at the fire works with the need to hand out dishes to the hungry men and women in the camp, Faanshi nevertheless bobs her head in lieu of a smile, for she caught the murmured prayer to Ushas and finds Milane a great comfort even as she peers in bemusement at the way she has bared herself before the passing men. "Will we cook at the fire...?" In the meantime, a loud string of yips and yaps from a small fluffy puppy signals that Kosha wants, in no uncertain terms, to make himself heard. The woman who had taken the puppy into the wagon weaves through the camp, carrying the small dog, and approaches Faanshi and Milane. "I believe this little fellow wants to see you, miss," comes the cheerful greeting, as Kosha is handed over. This makes the puppy yap even more loudly, his tail wagging ferociously. Sitting on a log next to the fire, Thomas remains top-less, apparently in little shame of his muscled physique. He looks over at the Sylvan Herald as the man sits on the ground, his lips curling just a bit in amusement. Reaching over to grab his sword from the place he rested it, he slides it from his sheath as he speaks, "You must excuse my ignorance into the ways of the Sylvan life, friend. I am afraid I have not spent much time among your culture to know the simplicity with which you lead it." The blade comes to a rest upon his lap and he reaches around to pull a small sack from his side, setting it next to himself. "I come from cultures where extravagance is a way of life," Murako explains his previous statement, "and money and wealth are expected. Many of us were slaves and know that harsh dichotomy of living in the shadow of such privilage. Just beyond our reach." Shaking his head, he turns his gaze towards Faanshi and Milane as they begin to approach the fire. They are still out of range for him to call out to them, but once again, he seems to be strangely fascinated with the both of these women when they are together. So different, yet so alike. The Mongrel leader has in the past demonstrated that he is a student of people, and it is no different at this moment. Milane chuckles at how adorable Faanshi is to her. Her innocence is so refreshing, and the older mongrel woman wants to protect her and keep her eyes young -- for some reason. She beams at the sight of the puppy, and controls her fingers from indulging in the soft fur before the maiden has a chance to cuddle her pet. With a trace of laughter in her voice, Milane continues. "Yes, Faanshi. . .we will eat my the fire with the others. It appears the evening meal is already made. Can you imagine! By our brothers, as well. This is _not_ usual for mongrels." She nods her head over at a basket of ceramic bowls before going to retrieve a few herself. "And here are the dishes." It is obvious that Milane would not need help with the minor weight of these items. It is an act of companionship, of sharing from the mongrel to the Varati clad maiden. "Help me?" She smiles, while leaning up with exactly half of the bowls in her hands. Turning forwards, Milane spots the familiar form of her leader and friend, Thomas Murako. She comes forward, just so her voice can reach him. Her eyes twinkle with mischief, as she calls out the first strike of the evening. "So you let the women do all the work in your camp, Thomas?" She clucks her tongue, "Tut, tut, where are your manners?" Where are Milane's manners? She has made no effort to wrap the shawl around her body, and the sight of maternal curves are readily available without shame. Milane continues further, looking behind her to make sure Faanshi is all right. She calls back to her friend, "Do you need help, Faanshi?" Faanshi cannot exactly be seen to light up as her puppy is presented to her, but from the way she accepts the little creature and cuddles him close while Kosha inundates her in a flurry of explosive barks and attempts to lick her face -- an interesting operation when one is wearing a veil -- it's easy enough to see that she is delighted to be reunited with the puppy. "Thank you," she pipes earnestly to the woman who's brought him to her, and only when Milane indicates the bowls does the maiden quickly put down her little dog, bobbing her blue-saried head. She dutifully accepts half the bowls, balancing them cautiously before following Milane towards the fire... and she answers earnestly, "No thank you, Imphada Milane, I can carry them..." Then she catches sight of the shirtless Thomas, gives a little gasp, and locks her attention on the bowls. Yes, a shirtless Thomas! Tanned skin, darkened nipples, and muscles well-toned with the effort of many days of hard labor. The wetness of his washing still clings to his skin in small beads, hair matted with wetness and pushed back out of his face. His eyes, brown in the light but black in the dark, find Milane's as she chides him, "All the work, eh? Milane, you know me to be a man of manners. Would I ever leave a woman to labor in such a fashion?" Chuckling softly, he glances down at his blade, continuing to speak, "We men do our share." Reaching down into the bag he took from his waist, the Mongrel man pulls out a whetstone. Placing it to the sword's edge, he strokes it down the length of the metal in one motion. Pausing, he looks back up and espies the obviously embarassed Faanshi, speaking to her, "Greetings, Faanshi. I see you have found a new friend?" And then his eyes find Milane once again, the chuckle having faded to a smile, "Both of you will be preparing this meal? I have the feeling that we are in for a treat of some sort." StormBearer nods quietly to the Mongrel Leader's statement. "I understand all too well, but too the opposite effect. When I first came to Haven, I was supprised to see such opulence. It still affects me some, but I have begun to grow used to it, when I am staying in Haven that is." Then, at the voices of the approaching females, he turns to see both Milane and Faanshi, but then turns back to the mongrel leader, watching to see any response to his talk. Milane dims her eyes to Faanshi, and bows her head over the bowls. "Just Milane." She was owned by a warrior. "Thomas, if you use the whetstone in just the up direction, you will achieve a better cut with your blade. If you stroke in two motions, up and down, you smooth over what you made sharp and it takes twice the work." A side thought. Milane continues forward to the fire wih Faanshi by her side, and finds a spot to work the evening meal and the flames. She closes her eyes and enjoys the rapid warmth on her brown skin, against the increasingly cool temperature of the coming night air. She exhales, and playfully remarks, "Oh, I thought the men might have taken the liberty of cooking. I should have known /better/." She rolls her eyes, and places a firm hand on her bare hip. "Hmmm. . ." she muses, at the thought of charging the evening meal. She looks to Faanshi and asks with a soft tone, "Is there a favorite spice you have, Faanshi? We will use that to center our meal." Kosha quite contentedly trots along at Faanshi's heels, and as the women come up to the fire, the little dog scampers about, sniffing eagerly at this thing and that: Thomas's boots, and then StormBearer's, and then over to investigate a rock very near to the fire... ooh! Fire! Warm! Mmmmmm! The puppy plops right down near the campfire, yawning mightily. Faanshi, meanwhile, manages a mute bob of her head to Thomas, having heard him, for all that she is very intently not looking in his direction. She bobs her head to Milane, too, murmuring the name as if trying it on for size, and then kneeling down to place the bowls a suitable distance away from the campfire. "I like rosemary," she murmurs tinily. Hrm, seems as if his Hand has given him wisdom once again -- indeed a bad choice was not made in accepting this woman's offer to serve as his advisor. Thomas eyes the blade as Milane tells him a better way to employ the stone, and after arching a brow to consider this course of action he moves it in the method which the Mongrel woman suggested, nodding approvingly as the motion seems to better accomplish his ends. Though he follows her advice, Murako smiles at her following comment, "I would gladly take the liberty of cooking if you would have hoisted the poles on the tents and done some of the other heavy lifting that the men must undertake. Perhaps we could trade someday, though I must warn you, my cooking is an atrocity. " Grinning just a touch, his eyes drift down to examine the measures of skin that peek forth from beneath his Hand's meager dress, then quickly dart towards StormBearer -- what a convenient distraction, "Aye. Haven is a place where all the races have come to mix. This mixing has in some ways brought understanding. I honestly do not know where this land would be were there not others who were keeping the racial pejudice and hatred in check." StormBearer nods, his eyes showing contemplation of the words of the Mongrel Leader, but he seems to have an opinion on the matter "It seems to me though Thomas, that you may get a glimpse. For away from Haven, I am correct, there is little to stop people from assualting your people, even if it is not an open assualt. The Hand's eyes narrow at Thomas. Milane may have sworn fierce loyalty in blood to this man, but she did not swear a sweet tongue for his masculine pride. "Excuse me, Thomas." Milane points to the northern half of the camp. "I. . ." Milane points to herself. "I. . .helped put those poles in the ground and throw the animal skins over the top. Do not think that because I am a woman I do not lift, Thomas. . ." Milane grits her teeth, and with it, swallows her feminine pride. "As for the evening meal, I would like to eat something nourishing so that I can continue to bear heavy weights upon my feminine back." Exhaling with frustration in Murako's direction, after surveying the wet flesh of his well muscled torso, Milane turns back to the comforting site of Faanshi. "I have rosemary. So, let me show you how to infuse the spice into the meat and garden to make it taste of it, no?" Milane smiles and reaches into the sack tied around her waste to retrieve her herbs and spices, and places the dried rosemarry in the boiling pot of food before the fire. Faanshi can't help another peek of general startlement at Milane -- not only is she scantily clad, but she is talking back to Thomas...? The veiled shudra then catches herself, and once more points her gaze downward; bowls and the simple tasks of preparing food are a much safer place to rest her attention. Once more, shyly, she bobs her head. "Yes, Milane," she murmurs, and then anxiety prompts her to whisper to the woman, "Please forgive me, but... are you not... _cold_?" Thomas continues to stroke his blade up and down with the whetstone, bringing the metal to an even sharper edge, "You are right, StormBearer. Little stands between my people and assult, but it is my hope that we can work to stint those who would obviously see us fail, and react to those who we cannot anticipate." Turning the blade over he continues to give the sword attention with the stone. "Admittedly, we are not strong, and our enemies are many. I and others amongst our number have worked very hard to mimize the threats to Avalon by opening relations with many of the major nations. It is my hope that by quickly moving to seek aid from the others, we might grow strong quickly. That is our only chance for true survival, for otherwise we will be forced to live in the shadow of the Pure Races. We would be little more than a different kind of slave." It is Milane's words which reach his ears next and as the Mongrel woman so strongly retorts his jest, the smile on his lips fades just a touch. Feminism isn't something that is widely seen in this era, and the idea of 'equality' among the sexes is lost to all but the growing liberal factions amongst the Empyreans. It is clear by his reaction that Thomas was never a party to this belief, and for all his political liberalism, he stands by his guns in this respect, "I did not know, Milane. There was no disrespect meant by my words. I merely made an observation that many women cannot do the sort of labor that is handled by men. It was clear that I made an incorrect observation on your part." These words are surprisingly flat, and hollow. As if he wasn't entirely pleased with the retort that his Hand gave him. StormBearer listens carefully to the words of Thomas, turning them over. For once, storm must admit it "You seem to be doing a good job." Remember that. Despite all his politeness, its not often that a complement comes from him. Though he still has many questions, his stomach is starting to complain. But he's used to that on journeys, so he thinks little of it. He looks absently towards the rapidly darkening sky, and begins to play a light melody upon the lute. It is quick and flighty, moving quickly with many highs and lows. It is the displeased tone of Thomas Murako that breaks Milane from her playful revelry. She had forgotten her place in this world. All day she had been bantering with her brothers and sisters -- and had been taken back to the joy of her youth when she would do that very thing. As a little girl, Milane was brazen and bold and able to speak with courage and confidence. But as a woman, Milane was a slave. She quickly remembers her place. In a flash of her brown eyes, Milane's spirit is gone and her voice returns to its unnaturally quiet state. She places the shawl more protectively around her torso, to cover her skin and nods slightly to Faanshi. "I will keep my skin more covered." Milane feels shame, both inside and out. Quietly, Milane goes about preparing the meal as quickly as she can making sure to emphasize her hands gestures so that Faanshi may learn about meal preparation if she chooses. Milane does not smile further, and her eyes are kept to the fire. She whispers under her breath to Faanshi, "I think the meal is prepared, now. Please. . ." her voice trembles slightly. ". . .if you would please bring the bowls so I may ration out the food for the community?" If it hadn't been made clear enough to her already, Milane's behavior to Thomas drives home to her how the man's position in the world has altered so dramatically since she originally met him -- from naraki to a leader of men, to someone Faanshi would be calling a Warlord if he were a Varati, and to her eyes at any rate, it certainly seems as though he has gathered unto himself the beginnings of a Clan! Even his tone to a woman is that of a Warlord, and it bothers her in a way she cannot define, coming as it does from Thomas Murako. But still, she edges a little closer to the other woman, sympathy blossoming quietly within her breast. Slender, gentle golden hands proffer up the first of the bowls, and for a moment, Faanshi dares to touch and clasp the older female's shoulder in a fleeting but palpable contact. Thomas Murako might be the leader of his people. He might be the man who is leading a nation dedicated to the ideals of freedom. Ideals that for this world are seen as somewhat revolutionary. Yet, there are apparently pieces of the Mongrel which are throwbacks to a past that remains shadowed in mystery. His words sound amazingly familiar, as if they were not newly made from some transformation, but had always been there. Beliefs that had been hidden beneath something else that are only now reawakening. His eyes follow Milane's shocked reaction to what he just said, but he continues to stare at her even after she's gone about her tasks, further evidence that what she said might have been over the line in his eyes. Silence as the two women prepare the bowls of food. That uncomfortable lack of speech that is only punctuated by StormBearer's lute. Yet, as he sees how impacted the Mongrel woman is, feels Faanshi's compassion for her plight, a twang of guilt forces him to turn towards the Sylvan man, his face softening, "StormBearer. Would you like to begin your tale now? I am certain that a moment of good story-telling could lighten the mood and tired spirits." A weak smile passes his lips as he removes the sword from his lap, sticking it firmly into the ground to his right. StormBearer nods and strums a happy tune upon his lute, preparing to tell a story of which he is all to familiar, and of which he must tell many people. It starts like this: "Once, far away, in another part of the world, there was a fertile valley. It was a good place, where crops grew quickly and healthily, and where gems and gold were found in the rivers. A tribe of sylvans lived there, and they were happy and prosperous. They became smart in thier ways, learning some of the arts of the other peoples, and becoming more sylvan than other tribes around them. But they lost thier edge. Thier warriors dwindled. They gathered and hunted lightly, but they had few weapons, for they needed them not." StormBearer continues the story, though the tune on the lute changes, becoming darker, and you can tell something unpleasant is about to happen. "Then One day in the valley, a great noise went up, as if the earth itself had been rent apart. And the people looked to the elders and shaman and cried for help! And the shaman tried to have a vision, but none came, and the people cried out to Nokomis "MOTHER! HELP US!" and the people cired out to Liu "TALESINGER! HELP US!"" StormBearer continues, the light tune on the lute now becoming saddened and bleak "But Nokomis and Liu were silent, for they knew what had to happen in that valley, and it saddened them greatly. Then, the people pointed towards a great light comming from over the moutains, and behold, there came a great beast over the mountain. It was as a great eagle, save all white, and it was covered in fire, and lightning flew from the bottom of its wings to strike the trees of the forest. The people looked at it and cried out, for it was fearsome to behold." The strength of the Hand is replaced with the shame of a mongrel woman. She blinks back water from her eyes. There will be no tears in the eye of the nation to shame herself or her leader tonight. It will be later -- so the woman uses the edge of her shawl to dab away what salted water that would escape. After placing the last of the food in the bowls she is met with the touch of Faanshi's affectionate hand. And under her shakey breath Milane offers a "thank you. . .namaste. . ." before turning to help the Varati clad maiden dispense with the rations of rosemarry flavored food. Milane declines the opportunity for evening meal -- remembering what her warrior owner had told her about food in large gatherings. It is not her place. She curls up by the fire, and places her head upon her gathered knees to enjoy the Sylvan's tale in her private space. And as StormBearer speaks his tale, strumming at his instrument, Faanshi bobs her head again to the Mongrel woman. Then, silent and shy, she helps Milane pass out the bowls of food, going first to Thomas -- for after all, he is the leader here. The very picture of a proper Varati-bred maiden, she holds out the bowl to him to take as he desires; not once does she look up at him, nor does she speak for fear of interrupting the Herald's story. As the story continues, the music stops altoghether. He continues in a slightly hoarse voice, as if it is slightly painfull for him to recall. "And the beast fell upon the valley." a single tear falls slowly down his cheek. "When this happened, there were two tribe members away from the rest. A bard and a graisha hunter. They heard the noise. They saw the beast, and they saw it fall upon the valley. They ran with all thier strength, and even then, they do not know how they made it back in such a short time. But they were to late. The village was gone, burnt down. The graisha shouted to the Sky Father for justice, and changed into his animal form, flying to the mountaintop which the beast had claimed." The music resumes, but in a pained, fragile melody, which rings of loss and lonlieness. "I waited there for my friend for two weeks. After that he returned, still in his animal form, a crow. He has never changed back since." And with that. It is done. If Thomas' words to Milane disturbed him, it certainly doesn't show upon his visage. The man's attention is focused on the Sylvan as he weaves his tale. His eyes become focused upon the man, transfixed as if he was almost trying to drown out his retort, or if he had let something slip, something that had been held in check. One of his hands rests upon the hilt of his blade, the other reaching up to take the bowl of food as Faanshi offers it to him. "Thank you." he mutters, giving her a brief glance accompanied by a small, weak smile. By the time he has begun to eat, the tale is done and a strange silence overtakes Murako for a moment. The observant would notice that he has yet to look at the Mongrel woman who disappeared after the food was prepared. StormBearer doesn't seem to be hungry anymore. His eyes are heavy and and the weight of the past if upon him. Food offered is set beside him until he is ready to eat. He takes up the lute once more, and begins slowly a sad tune, yet beautiful. It is the tune that Milane had been singing under her breath throughout this journey. The mongrel woman's eyes widen in astonishment as StormBearer catches note-for-note, the harmony and rhythm of her ballad. Her eyes easily shine again with water, and now have an excuse to let tears come. A way to vent the shame and sadness that falls upon her, much in the days of her warrior's keep. The alto voice of the older women begins. It is the texture of the sweet, incremental tones of the Varati that linger and mold over one melodic structure. It is the rhythm of the Sylvans, that can feel nature so close to their hearts. This hybrid of cultures is carried forth in the rich voice of a mongrel woman: Whoso draws nigh to the city of eleven gates Of him who is not born, whose thought is not perverse, He grieves not, for he has won deliverance: Deliverance is His! As swan he dwells in the pure sky As god he dwells in the fire Of water born, of kine of Law I devote my blood to him. Milane continues on, leaning her body towards the flames of the fire and closing her eyes to feel the emotion of her prayer. Water comes and goes in delicate streams, as the woman releases the old Varati prayer in Sylvan harmonics. Song: Katha Upanishad V:3-4 Faanshi might perhaps notice Thomas's smile if she lifted her eyes from the bowl she holds out to him... but as it happens, she never looks up, not once, from her own hands. And thus she misses entirely whatever gaze he might choose to turn upon her. Her only acknowledgement of his muttered words is a graceful little curtsey, exactly the kind of obeisance she has made time and again to the Warlord of Clan Sarazen... and a little tremor of fear flickers across her heart. If Thomas bears the armor and weaponry of a Warlord, if he leads men and woman like a Warlord, will he begin to act as Hashim had done and... but before she can finish _that_ thought, though, she shoves it hard into the back of her mind, abruptly deeply troubled. And she retreats from Thomas like a nervous bright-feathered bird, retreats into handing out bowls of food to hungry Mongrel men and women, missing too the curious glances she gets from some of the followers of Murako... for she raises her eyes to no one. And like Milane, she takes no food for herself. Bits and pieces of StormBearer's tale filter across her hearing, and one fact -- the fact about the crow -- lodges in her memory, but if the shudra maiden has a reaction or an opinion, it is muted by flickering firelight and further hidden by the veil that conceals her countenance. Only when Milane begins to offer up her prayer does Faanshi seems to relax a little, settling down wordlessly just outside the immediate glow of the fire. Well, it appears as if that sad tale didn't do much to lighten the spirits, as Thomas had suggested. The Mongrel remains there in his place on the log, nibbling at the food in the bowl, but after a few moments, he sets it aside. Perhaps he's not overly hungry either. Though Milane has taken a place far from the fire, he can hear the rich tones of her voice mingling with that of the Sylvan's. He can feel the hesitation in Faanshi's gaze, the fear that she sees behind the man that truly lies beneath. It is /this/ which strikes him more than each of these tunes, and after a moment, he sets his whetstone aside, rising. It is he who breaks the lack of words, eyes drifting towards StormBearer, heavy with emotion that storms beneath the surface of his breast, "I am sorry for the loss of your people. It is my hope that we can honor their lives and give them the peace they deserve." And with that, he turns from the firepit, making his way out towards the edges of darkness which encompass the camp now as the sun disappears. Unlike the Mongrel Leader, it doesn't look like the sylvan is going anywhere. He cannot.. He will not.. He must not.... The words of Thomas enter him, but there is no response, for it seems as if a very presence of gloom has entered the camp. A very darkness which consumes joy and happiness. And so the Sylvan sits, waiting... After her prayer is finished, Milane feels the salt of her tears drying against her face from the heat of her fire. She rises to her full height, gripping her shawl around her in shame, and turns to exit the fire without taking evening meal. Before she does this, however, Milane walks to Faanshi with two steaming bowls of food. She whispers in a trembling voice. "Please, eat, Faanshi. You are a growing young girl who will is to be a beautiful woman. Eat, for me?" She points to the loyal pet beside her. "And this is for the little one. . ." Her voice can only be heard by the other woman. Milane is guarding her words now. She exits, and goes to make herself scarce for the night. Alone. Faanshi's puppy has been happily soaking up the warmth of the fire all this time, and occasionally vigorously scratching himself in between following his silken-garbed mistress around. Only a small creature like a puppy can really excel at that 'you're going to feed me now, right? You're going to feed me, now? How about now? Now?' hopeful expression, and when someone finally seems to actually be wanting to feed him (joy!), Kosha veritably bounces in delight before planting his face muzzle-down in the food and licking up every scrap in the bowl. Faanshi is rather more circumspect about accepting a share of the dinner, but she nods earnestly, lifting her gaze to Milane as she has done for no one tonight, green eyes reflecting an anxious concern. "I will eat," she promises, "in the tent... thank you...!" And thus she rises, holding the bowl cautiously close. A little curtsey is dropped to StormBearer, too, and with that Faanshi creeps off to the tent that has been put up for her to share with the Hand. [End log.]